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someone once asked me this :

"if you didnt know something with regards to a certain person, and if knowing would make you extremely unhappy, would you still want to know?"

i told the bro :

"yes"

and ive never regretted knowing.


in that instant, lots came clear and tho it hurt like a s.o.b when i first heard that, went thru the usual denial and all before admittin to myself that it was most probably true, knowing was infinitely better den not knowing.

im an extremely jealous person.
as my baby would gladly tell anyone who would listen,
as well as being an uber emo kid.

im prone to rage fits, that i'll most of the time regret within the next half hour and spent the next 3 days apologising to whoever was that unfortunate soul who took the brunt of it(which of late has been my baby.=((((((((()

but despite it all.

i think tad knowledge of truth, the situation as it is, is extremely important.

im the sort that believes that while i dun need a minute by minute breakdown o your day, i would still like to know the vague points so at least i know whats going on in the person's life.

i mean.
its all about communication and the little things that keep you 2 together and moving on hand in hand rite?

i mean..if you have no clue, wads the difference between you guys and a pair of strangers.

hmmm.
but then again.
my extremely idealistic views again.hahaha.
which many are terrified of.

i guess i am the idealist.

cynic on the outside,
ultimate idealist on the inside.


damn im such a mess of contradictions.
lol.
okie this isnt helping my accountin assignment one bit.

ciao