i was blog hoppin the other day.
and i saw this line.

about how a particular person had an influence on the blogger.
and how the blogger didnt like it.

and i realise.
tad im not much better.

and i should be stiffening myself up?

fuck i dunno.
talking about it really doesnt help.
kinda just builds the exasperation and frustration up.
(thanks josh and dud for listening tho)


maybe im juz physically and mentally tired.
maybe all i need is sleep.
yea sleep.
nite.

there was this post i read:

"im feeling really happy.
kinda looking forward to every new day.
are you lookin forward to tmr?"

and tbh,
when i asked myself tad question.

i'm not lookin forward to tmr.

and im not happy.

quite the opposite i guess.

but like all battles that rage within myself. its a silent battle tad the victor is still ultimately the loser.

fuck all this emo shit.

its really not helping.

nite.