heh.
this is for those pple who wonder wad ive been up to.:)
1 x nasty maiden down.:)
Thursday, April 05, 2007
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
joke of the day
juz remembered this joke wen i came abck from my uncle's COA installation parade
ah beng was in america and he went to the bank with 200SGD and asked fer US bucks.
he got back 90USD and was grumbling away at the exchange rate.
he then wentt out and realised he had not anought money and hadta go back too the bank again.
so the next day he went back to the bank wit 200SGD and asked fer US bucks.
this time,he only got back 85USD.
den ah beng was dam tulan alr so he asked the cashier "EH WHY LIKE TAD.YOU TRYIN TO CHEAT ME ISIT."
the cashier den replied "fluctuations" and pressed fer the next person in line.
den ah beng was dam pissed off den wen he left the bank he shouted bank "FLUC you americans too!"
lolololol
ah beng was in america and he went to the bank with 200SGD and asked fer US bucks.
he got back 90USD and was grumbling away at the exchange rate.
he then wentt out and realised he had not anought money and hadta go back too the bank again.
so the next day he went back to the bank wit 200SGD and asked fer US bucks.
this time,he only got back 85USD.
den ah beng was dam tulan alr so he asked the cashier "EH WHY LIKE TAD.YOU TRYIN TO CHEAT ME ISIT."
the cashier den replied "fluctuations" and pressed fer the next person in line.
den ah beng was dam pissed off den wen he left the bank he shouted bank "FLUC you americans too!"
lolololol
Sunday, March 18, 2007
ponders n jokes
hmm.
its been a dam long while since i last blogged so yea.:)
its about time.
im currently sittin on a lean back chair in my ops room mannin it during the lunch break hours where everyone goes off to sleep.:P
hahaha.
niwaez.
i've realised sumthin recently about asians.
its this thing called image.
i dunno isit cuz of my dealins with pple from other races,
but i realise asians are extremely particular about how they are viewed by others.
im not say that others arent,but asian chinese especially..
like they need to feel like they are frens n liked by everyone,
will do things that they dun like/hafta make a huge effort juz to be in that person's good books.
which doesnt make alot of sense to me unless that person has umthin to offer you.
tke it as im calculative or what,but i juz think that sumtimes one juz needs to be honest wit oneself to achieve alot more.
i look at couple non asian chinese frens of mine n they totally dun care about pple that they dun wanna care about.
the rules are there to be abided but now becomes subjects of.
if they like you,they gonna chat with you,take time to chillout with you,generally show interest to you.
on the other hand,if they dun have any particular thing to do with you,they wunt really other at all.
which will not happen fer us cuz we have the mentaility that we hafta please everybody.
i tink its sumthin to do with the fact that we always think of pple as business contacts.
like we muz alwayts maintain good relations cuz we never know when sum1 will be of value to us and all that kinda nonsense.
but the hassle about it sumtimes givers me pause as to the overall feasibility of it..
i dunno.
but as off late i figure im gettin more n more heck care about the things/pple that ive always cared about as a matter of mentality as now i feel like ive been foolish all that while.
frenships are nice.
but i tink brotherhoods rule.
on hindsight.
i tink i did th right thing in being in an all boys school all my life.
sure i may be hopeless at understanding girls n communicating to em.
but i'll take 1 close knit og brothers over 1 huge grp of normals frens.
tou know wad i mean?
like brothers that'll on your" eh $%@!# . kin. go out pls."
they'll reply "^*$%&%$& dun wan la.go where.NO MONIES "
or " huh.okie lo.do wad"
but eventually the reply = "wad time where.confirm den tell me"
simple communication n minimal hassle = good time out there enjoyin each others company.:)
oh wells.
anough pondering for today.
used up my aily allocation of brain cells there alr.
juz food for your thought.
take it back n digest.
life's been good today.
since my S3 is on leave.
today = slack day.
i have done ABSOLUTELY NOTHING except come into office,update the BN strength n duty list for today,
and then sit down to read SAF forums.
SAF forums = jokes + WoW stuff.
HAHAHA
but ive juz about exhausted the jokes pages.
read too dam fast i swear.
its like 100 pages n ive done abouu 70 since last thurs wen i found out about it.:(
heh.
weekend was good.
sat was STOMP THE YARD DAY!!!!!!
with fysh n mudkip.
extremely good time out wit em please.
watchin fysh drool over his crush n mudkip naggin us about school work-_-
fun fun fun.:)
felt dam good to get outta the house n juz go out to relax.:)
WoW gets you stressed sumtimes too.:P
hahaha
who's mudkip?
mudkip=g
i have a picture that'll explain all but its currently on hold status while i see if she upholds her bargain.:P
if she doesn den you'll see sumthin akin to nightmare vale photo on fysh's blog.
HBAAHA.
mudkipmudkipmudkip loloolo.:P
on a totally seperate page.
i finally got the trophy fer soccer alr, and i won 2nd in the SAFSA hockey tourney.:P
scored 7/9 of the team's goals so im feelin poretty good.
flip side is that my knee is kinda screwed and still is kinda screwed.
hruts like hell.
the circle is gold.:P
1st fer soccer in the RSAF compition.:P
check it out n drool over MADE IN CHINA trophies.:P
new additions to the ones gatherin dust in my cupboard.:P
last but not least.
my 3 jokes fer today.:)
ah beng joke number 1.
ah beng bought himself a brand new nissan skyline and went to ZHNG it until swee den den took it to ah lian to show off.
ab:Eh check out my new car.sibei swee can.it goes so fast even faster den ma ta qia
al:wah really ar?
ab:really.it go so fast you macham like racing like tad.sibei song one wen you tak the you.
al:eh you let me try can???
ab:okay lo.you wait i go straight road.
on the straight road ah beng lets ah lian take the wheel.
ah lian puts the car in gear,slams the accelerator to the floow n promptly the car zooms backwards n slams into a lamp post.
ah beng freaks outs n SPRINTS OVER screamin " SIAO CHAR BOR WAD DID YOU DO?AN ZHUA YOU GO BACKWARD!!!!!!"
ah lian den sheepishly replies"but i tot the r = racing wad."
ah lian calls ah beng up 1 day
al:eh beng ah.come n help me lehz.i got this jigsaw puzzle very hard to do lehz.
ab:huh.where got hard.juz mix n match the edges can alr wad.
al:i know lehz.but it ver hard can come help me?
ab:hiaz.wad kinda picture so cheem one
al:sum pic of a boy eatin sumthin loz.
ab:aiyah okay la limbei come n help.
so ah beng drives over to the ah lians house n ah lian lets him in n shows him the puzzle.
ah beng turns arnd on her n tells her
"eh siao ah.put the cornflakes back in the box can?"
and for the more politically astute.
1 day the pope n queen e were on this balcony lookin at the crowds below.
the queen said"i bet with 1 wave of myhand i can make all the nglish below us scream wild n wave madly back at me"
the pop doesnt agree n take the queen up.
the queen den proceeds to gently wave at the crowd n ture enough,the entire street of english start cheering madly,waving frantically n basically doin everythin but go beserk.
the pope stares in disbelief.
den he tells the queen"double or nothing.i bet witha nod of my head,i can make all the irish cheer madly fer a whole WEEK"
the queen thinkin its impossible takes him up.
the pope den leans close to the queen n nods his head,in the processin headbuttin the queen to the floor.
kekeke
enjoy.
wow time.:)
its been a dam long while since i last blogged so yea.:)
its about time.
im currently sittin on a lean back chair in my ops room mannin it during the lunch break hours where everyone goes off to sleep.:P
hahaha.
niwaez.
i've realised sumthin recently about asians.
its this thing called image.
i dunno isit cuz of my dealins with pple from other races,
but i realise asians are extremely particular about how they are viewed by others.
im not say that others arent,but asian chinese especially..
like they need to feel like they are frens n liked by everyone,
will do things that they dun like/hafta make a huge effort juz to be in that person's good books.
which doesnt make alot of sense to me unless that person has umthin to offer you.
tke it as im calculative or what,but i juz think that sumtimes one juz needs to be honest wit oneself to achieve alot more.
i look at couple non asian chinese frens of mine n they totally dun care about pple that they dun wanna care about.
the rules are there to be abided but now becomes subjects of.
if they like you,they gonna chat with you,take time to chillout with you,generally show interest to you.
on the other hand,if they dun have any particular thing to do with you,they wunt really other at all.
which will not happen fer us cuz we have the mentaility that we hafta please everybody.
i tink its sumthin to do with the fact that we always think of pple as business contacts.
like we muz alwayts maintain good relations cuz we never know when sum1 will be of value to us and all that kinda nonsense.
but the hassle about it sumtimes givers me pause as to the overall feasibility of it..
i dunno.
but as off late i figure im gettin more n more heck care about the things/pple that ive always cared about as a matter of mentality as now i feel like ive been foolish all that while.
frenships are nice.
but i tink brotherhoods rule.
on hindsight.
i tink i did th right thing in being in an all boys school all my life.
sure i may be hopeless at understanding girls n communicating to em.
but i'll take 1 close knit og brothers over 1 huge grp of normals frens.
tou know wad i mean?
like brothers that'll on your" eh $%@!# . kin. go out pls."
they'll reply "^*$%&%$& dun wan la.go where.NO MONIES "
or " huh.okie lo.do wad"
but eventually the reply = "wad time where.confirm den tell me"
simple communication n minimal hassle = good time out there enjoyin each others company.:)
oh wells.
anough pondering for today.
used up my aily allocation of brain cells there alr.
juz food for your thought.
take it back n digest.
life's been good today.
since my S3 is on leave.
today = slack day.
i have done ABSOLUTELY NOTHING except come into office,update the BN strength n duty list for today,
and then sit down to read SAF forums.
SAF forums = jokes + WoW stuff.
HAHAHA
but ive juz about exhausted the jokes pages.
read too dam fast i swear.
its like 100 pages n ive done abouu 70 since last thurs wen i found out about it.:(
heh.
weekend was good.
sat was STOMP THE YARD DAY!!!!!!
with fysh n mudkip.
extremely good time out wit em please.
watchin fysh drool over his crush n mudkip naggin us about school work-_-
fun fun fun.:)
felt dam good to get outta the house n juz go out to relax.:)
WoW gets you stressed sumtimes too.:P
hahaha
who's mudkip?
mudkip=g
i have a picture that'll explain all but its currently on hold status while i see if she upholds her bargain.:P
if she doesn den you'll see sumthin akin to nightmare vale photo on fysh's blog.
HBAAHA.
mudkipmudkipmudkip loloolo.:P
on a totally seperate page.
i finally got the trophy fer soccer alr, and i won 2nd in the SAFSA hockey tourney.:P
scored 7/9 of the team's goals so im feelin poretty good.
flip side is that my knee is kinda screwed and still is kinda screwed.
hruts like hell.
the circle is gold.:P
1st fer soccer in the RSAF compition.:P
check it out n drool over MADE IN CHINA trophies.:P
new additions to the ones gatherin dust in my cupboard.:P
last but not least.
my 3 jokes fer today.:)
ah beng joke number 1.
ah beng bought himself a brand new nissan skyline and went to ZHNG it until swee den den took it to ah lian to show off.
ab:Eh check out my new car.sibei swee can.it goes so fast even faster den ma ta qia
al:wah really ar?
ab:really.it go so fast you macham like racing like tad.sibei song one wen you tak the you.
al:eh you let me try can???
ab:okay lo.you wait i go straight road.
on the straight road ah beng lets ah lian take the wheel.
ah lian puts the car in gear,slams the accelerator to the floow n promptly the car zooms backwards n slams into a lamp post.
ah beng freaks outs n SPRINTS OVER screamin " SIAO CHAR BOR WAD DID YOU DO?AN ZHUA YOU GO BACKWARD!!!!!!"
ah lian den sheepishly replies"but i tot the r = racing wad."
ah lian calls ah beng up 1 day
al:eh beng ah.come n help me lehz.i got this jigsaw puzzle very hard to do lehz.
ab:huh.where got hard.juz mix n match the edges can alr wad.
al:i know lehz.but it ver hard can come help me?
ab:hiaz.wad kinda picture so cheem one
al:sum pic of a boy eatin sumthin loz.
ab:aiyah okay la limbei come n help.
so ah beng drives over to the ah lians house n ah lian lets him in n shows him the puzzle.
ah beng turns arnd on her n tells her
"eh siao ah.put the cornflakes back in the box can?"
and for the more politically astute.
1 day the pope n queen e were on this balcony lookin at the crowds below.
the queen said"i bet with 1 wave of myhand i can make all the nglish below us scream wild n wave madly back at me"
the pop doesnt agree n take the queen up.
the queen den proceeds to gently wave at the crowd n ture enough,the entire street of english start cheering madly,waving frantically n basically doin everythin but go beserk.
the pope stares in disbelief.
den he tells the queen"double or nothing.i bet witha nod of my head,i can make all the irish cheer madly fer a whole WEEK"
the queen thinkin its impossible takes him up.
the pope den leans close to the queen n nods his head,in the processin headbuttin the queen to the floor.
kekeke
enjoy.
wow time.:)
Saturday, March 10, 2007
realism
okie.
lets start of by dispellin the 1st myth of today.
there is no such thing as "healthy pain"
i refer to the aches that come aft healthy exercise.
had a SAFSA hockey tourney yest.
man.
outta shape wunt begin to cover it.:(
i juz learnt a new level of pain with regards to sore muscles.
and my knee is bent outta shape so much so wen i roll over in sleep i bite off a scream of pain cuz i can literally feel my joints grating.:(
pain pain pain.
but it was worth it as i won a silver medal.:P
this comin from a team that nearly didnt field cuz we didnt haf enuf players.
the average age of our team was 38.lol.
agains all 20+s from Guards,Navy n the other divisions.
all my team were warrant officers.all dam outta form.left me n this OCT to run arnd the entire pitch.
by the end of the 1st game i was so winded i was twisted in half.-_-
boh kui pls.:(
i would show you the trophy but since my sister happily took both the digital cameras in the house.i cant.
juz got back from watchin 300 with fysh.
who drags me outta the house away from the com nowadays.lol.
cuz i refuse to do anithin but focus on gettin my axe in WoW.
its a pretty sweet show.:)
but i still wanna watch the will smith show.
anyone wanna accompany please?:)
niwaez.
im gonna go back to gaming.
cya next post wen im emo.:P
lets start of by dispellin the 1st myth of today.
there is no such thing as "healthy pain"
i refer to the aches that come aft healthy exercise.
had a SAFSA hockey tourney yest.
man.
outta shape wunt begin to cover it.:(
i juz learnt a new level of pain with regards to sore muscles.
and my knee is bent outta shape so much so wen i roll over in sleep i bite off a scream of pain cuz i can literally feel my joints grating.:(
pain pain pain.
but it was worth it as i won a silver medal.:P
this comin from a team that nearly didnt field cuz we didnt haf enuf players.
the average age of our team was 38.lol.
agains all 20+s from Guards,Navy n the other divisions.
all my team were warrant officers.all dam outta form.left me n this OCT to run arnd the entire pitch.
by the end of the 1st game i was so winded i was twisted in half.-_-
boh kui pls.:(
i would show you the trophy but since my sister happily took both the digital cameras in the house.i cant.
juz got back from watchin 300 with fysh.
who drags me outta the house away from the com nowadays.lol.
cuz i refuse to do anithin but focus on gettin my axe in WoW.
its a pretty sweet show.:)
but i still wanna watch the will smith show.
anyone wanna accompany please?:)
niwaez.
im gonna go back to gaming.
cya next post wen im emo.:P
Friday, January 26, 2007
hope n hurt
hmm.
this is gonna be one of those long emo posts.
so yea.
if you aint in da mood dun bother.:P
life really is such a cruel lil bit of humanhood aint it.
without hope,
one hardly finds joy in living.
wakin up is a chore,
goin thru your daily motions is a chore.
you have nothing to look forward to.
on the other hand,
wit hope,
comes this word and event in life tad happens all too often:
disappointment.
disappointment.
dictionary defined:to fail to meet the hope of.
ben defined:being let down wen you truly believe.
i dunno why is it this way,
but pple i care for,
im totally impervious to their faults,
i turn a blind eye.
to me,
even if they fault,
its a slip up.
nothing more,
nothing less.
and went they look apologetically at me,
the wrong is gone,
and i truly believe they wunt ever do it again.
but sumtimes these things turn arnd n bite you in the ass.
and tads wen disppointment comes about.
wen i fall,
i fall hard i guess.
it takes really REALLY alot of fallin n hurtin before i learn my lesson i guess.
and much of it i always end up askin myself is it worth it.
the way i feel now is not strangly unfamiliar.
its happened once before.
and juz as strongly as i tot i would be crushed then,
i feel the same.
but yet im still here.
and that thought should comfort me shouldnt it?
or not.
where is the point where enough is enough.
where you call it quits for yourself.
i truly know not.
cuz i truly believe in the pple i care for,
much like each n every parent would their child.
i dunno.
maybe cuz i was brought up in an environment where i learnt the true meanin of love from mummy.
and this kinda love has no place in the world except in a family.
i rememeber sumthin jie told me wen she sat down wit me sumtime ago.
hmm.
quite a while ago.:D
since she went away fer quite abit.
she was tellin me about her n zn and how i was wit qi.
and she told me as much as herself.
maybe we juz love too much.
and thus hurt too much.
and wen it comes down to it.
maybe tad is the clue and answer to all my troubles.
ne-yo has this song.
so sick?
i love this song.
its sooooo bitter,
but yet it has such painfully close emotions.
i dunno.
i juz connect wit sad emotional r&b songs.
pfft.
maybe its the sadist within.
so sick of love song,
so tired of tears,
so done wit wishin,
tad you were still here,
said im so sick of love songs,
so sad n stoned,
......
apt.
i guess.
in life certain lessons hafta be learnt the hard way.
it was a certain incident a coupla days back tad made me sign my 1st 2 extras in ns.
a certainn call tad left me annoyed before i went to bed,
woke up late,
went into work late,
got screwed n basically didnt care n numbed myself to it all,
and yea,generally thought it was goin to be "one of those days"
den got caught playin risk on the computer n signed 2 extras fer it.
ridiculous rite.
and now i wunt be home fer the whole cny hols.
go figure i guess.
/wrists
my sir was talkin to me whilst giving me those extras.
he was sayin"you had better be more positive,you'll never surivie ns witout apositive attitude.
if you dun find sumthin to spark your life you'll end up destroyin yourself"
and i tink its relly thru.
later that day,
recieved a mail from a fren who had no clue of wad happened,
but yet the mail said more of less the exact same thing.
and i was like"word from God,time to take heed ben"
and i tried it,
wakin up early,
reporting to work early everyday,
and yea,
it works,i dun get into ANY trouble anymore,
but tho im safe in my work environment now,
wad of myself.
im still absurdly adject n seperated from my surroundings.
i dun really relate to em anymore.
im like a zombie walkin arnd fer all the emotion i feel.
i doubt its really healthy?
sooner of later its gonna come out i juz hope it comes out smoothly n n gut wrenchingly.
life's a bitch,
cuts like a stitch,
dun moan n bitch,
you're the only one tad can do sumthin about it.
sinseh words from ben.:P
sighz
i dun even know wd i wanna say.
impassive is my middle name now.
juz watchin lief pas me by i guess.
meanwhile watchin out fer my driving tests dates.
time to pass n do it well.
i wanan drive by my birthday.
this is gonna be one of those long emo posts.
so yea.
if you aint in da mood dun bother.:P
life really is such a cruel lil bit of humanhood aint it.
without hope,
one hardly finds joy in living.
wakin up is a chore,
goin thru your daily motions is a chore.
you have nothing to look forward to.
on the other hand,
wit hope,
comes this word and event in life tad happens all too often:
disappointment.
disappointment.
dictionary defined:to fail to meet the hope of.
ben defined:being let down wen you truly believe.
i dunno why is it this way,
but pple i care for,
im totally impervious to their faults,
i turn a blind eye.
to me,
even if they fault,
its a slip up.
nothing more,
nothing less.
and went they look apologetically at me,
the wrong is gone,
and i truly believe they wunt ever do it again.
but sumtimes these things turn arnd n bite you in the ass.
and tads wen disppointment comes about.
wen i fall,
i fall hard i guess.
it takes really REALLY alot of fallin n hurtin before i learn my lesson i guess.
and much of it i always end up askin myself is it worth it.
the way i feel now is not strangly unfamiliar.
its happened once before.
and juz as strongly as i tot i would be crushed then,
i feel the same.
but yet im still here.
and that thought should comfort me shouldnt it?
or not.
where is the point where enough is enough.
where you call it quits for yourself.
i truly know not.
cuz i truly believe in the pple i care for,
much like each n every parent would their child.
i dunno.
maybe cuz i was brought up in an environment where i learnt the true meanin of love from mummy.
and this kinda love has no place in the world except in a family.
i rememeber sumthin jie told me wen she sat down wit me sumtime ago.
hmm.
quite a while ago.:D
since she went away fer quite abit.
she was tellin me about her n zn and how i was wit qi.
and she told me as much as herself.
maybe we juz love too much.
and thus hurt too much.
and wen it comes down to it.
maybe tad is the clue and answer to all my troubles.
ne-yo has this song.
so sick?
i love this song.
its sooooo bitter,
but yet it has such painfully close emotions.
i dunno.
i juz connect wit sad emotional r&b songs.
pfft.
maybe its the sadist within.
so sick of love song,
so tired of tears,
so done wit wishin,
tad you were still here,
said im so sick of love songs,
so sad n stoned,
......
apt.
i guess.
in life certain lessons hafta be learnt the hard way.
it was a certain incident a coupla days back tad made me sign my 1st 2 extras in ns.
a certainn call tad left me annoyed before i went to bed,
woke up late,
went into work late,
got screwed n basically didnt care n numbed myself to it all,
and yea,generally thought it was goin to be "one of those days"
den got caught playin risk on the computer n signed 2 extras fer it.
ridiculous rite.
and now i wunt be home fer the whole cny hols.
go figure i guess.
/wrists
my sir was talkin to me whilst giving me those extras.
he was sayin"you had better be more positive,you'll never surivie ns witout apositive attitude.
if you dun find sumthin to spark your life you'll end up destroyin yourself"
and i tink its relly thru.
later that day,
recieved a mail from a fren who had no clue of wad happened,
but yet the mail said more of less the exact same thing.
and i was like"word from God,time to take heed ben"
and i tried it,
wakin up early,
reporting to work early everyday,
and yea,
it works,i dun get into ANY trouble anymore,
but tho im safe in my work environment now,
wad of myself.
im still absurdly adject n seperated from my surroundings.
i dun really relate to em anymore.
im like a zombie walkin arnd fer all the emotion i feel.
i doubt its really healthy?
sooner of later its gonna come out i juz hope it comes out smoothly n n gut wrenchingly.
life's a bitch,
cuts like a stitch,
dun moan n bitch,
you're the only one tad can do sumthin about it.
sinseh words from ben.:P
sighz
i dun even know wd i wanna say.
impassive is my middle name now.
juz watchin lief pas me by i guess.
meanwhile watchin out fer my driving tests dates.
time to pass n do it well.
i wanan drive by my birthday.
Thursday, January 18, 2007
ruddy hell
hahaha.
EST-TAD"S CUZ YOU ARENT SWEET N INNOCENT.:@
D- LEARN.:P
i haf no idea why my stupid tagboard cant open but yea.:) since ya'll can tag i shall reply here den.:P
its been a crappy WEEK.
sick,didnt get mc,hadta cope in camp all doped up.
n sumhow everyone forgot n yea.
i kept gettin shat dumped on me n in trouble.
:@:@:@:@:@
seriously a bad day man.
horrendous.:@
but my day juz got brightened by AMERICAN IDOL SEASON 6 pls.
LAFFED MY WAY FOR A WHOLE HOUR at those nubs.
lol.
cant take it.
WOOT.
2nd part started.
btw,
juz reformatted my com.
it'll be a while before im back to normal online.:P
heh.
TATA.
miss ya'll loads.
HATE NS LOADS TOO.
EST-TAD"S CUZ YOU ARENT SWEET N INNOCENT.:@
D- LEARN.:P
i haf no idea why my stupid tagboard cant open but yea.:) since ya'll can tag i shall reply here den.:P
its been a crappy WEEK.
sick,didnt get mc,hadta cope in camp all doped up.
n sumhow everyone forgot n yea.
i kept gettin shat dumped on me n in trouble.
:@:@:@:@:@
seriously a bad day man.
horrendous.:@
but my day juz got brightened by AMERICAN IDOL SEASON 6 pls.
LAFFED MY WAY FOR A WHOLE HOUR at those nubs.
lol.
cant take it.
WOOT.
2nd part started.
btw,
juz reformatted my com.
it'll be a while before im back to normal online.:P
heh.
TATA.
miss ya'll loads.
HATE NS LOADS TOO.
Monday, January 15, 2007
ahahaha
off dudley's blog.
man.if only it was true man.:P
how good would it be to be irresistable.:P
"SWEET DUDE":P
hahahahaha
Friday, January 12, 2007
the rare relief
hmm.
im FINALLY BACK FOR THE WEEKEND WHICH ISNT A WEEKEND AFT ALL.
/cry + /bawl + /depressed FTL(for the non gamer community,ftl= for the loss)
why?
cuz its another short weekend like last week.
why?
cuz tml at bloody 2 pm,imma get recalled to unit.
how do i know?cuz imma stupid ops spec.
and this stupid ops spec has been workin from 7-30 am every bloody mornin till 11+ every single stupid night,missin the dinner timin at the cookhouse and gettin tao paued food in from my workaholic master sgt who doesnt let us go till his gan chiong spider within has been fully appeased.:@
tad's an avrg of 13 hrs a day of NON-STOP piaing work.
WHICH IS NOT THE KIND OF LIFE THIS NSF WANTS TO LEAD:@:@:@:@
extremely tired,
gettin 10 mins breaks is a blessin which i immediately go into the next room,flop my head on my forearm n start snoring.
basically all in all,a ridiculous work week.
shacked beyond all measure man.:P
but im finally gone!!!!!!
WOOT!!!
hmm.
but tis gonna be a choco filled weekend.:)
which im glad for.
God knows im in for sum free-from-all-responsibilities fun.:)
so its gonna be hardcore wow tonight as im on baby duty tonight,
and aft recall,
imma head to st james wit 2 grps of mates!!!
1st grp be my AFS mates,with whom i have discovered that clubbin wit a buncha "on" guys is better den clubbin wit a bunch of chick-hunters.
seriously i have more fun doin nonsense stuff wit em den wit the hunters.:)
2nd grp be my beloved maris bros with whom i'll shed skin for if not blood.:P
dudley n timmy!!!!!!my aussie bit%% brudder.:P
juz hope it wunt be too crowded n ns boy infested.
if it is.....................................
POKER TIME.:P
heh.:)
man i so wan sum chill out time.:)
really hope i get a good weekend.:) bringin my family out for dinner this weekend too.:)
much love that way.:)
its feels SO DAM GOOD to be outta camp.
:P
im FINALLY BACK FOR THE WEEKEND WHICH ISNT A WEEKEND AFT ALL.
/cry + /bawl + /depressed FTL(for the non gamer community,ftl= for the loss)
why?
cuz its another short weekend like last week.
why?
cuz tml at bloody 2 pm,imma get recalled to unit.
how do i know?cuz imma stupid ops spec.
and this stupid ops spec has been workin from 7-30 am every bloody mornin till 11+ every single stupid night,missin the dinner timin at the cookhouse and gettin tao paued food in from my workaholic master sgt who doesnt let us go till his gan chiong spider within has been fully appeased.:@
tad's an avrg of 13 hrs a day of NON-STOP piaing work.
WHICH IS NOT THE KIND OF LIFE THIS NSF WANTS TO LEAD:@:@:@:@
extremely tired,
gettin 10 mins breaks is a blessin which i immediately go into the next room,flop my head on my forearm n start snoring.
basically all in all,a ridiculous work week.
shacked beyond all measure man.:P
but im finally gone!!!!!!
WOOT!!!
hmm.
but tis gonna be a choco filled weekend.:)
which im glad for.
God knows im in for sum free-from-all-responsibilities fun.:)
so its gonna be hardcore wow tonight as im on baby duty tonight,
and aft recall,
imma head to st james wit 2 grps of mates!!!
1st grp be my AFS mates,with whom i have discovered that clubbin wit a buncha "on" guys is better den clubbin wit a bunch of chick-hunters.
seriously i have more fun doin nonsense stuff wit em den wit the hunters.:)
2nd grp be my beloved maris bros with whom i'll shed skin for if not blood.:P
dudley n timmy!!!!!!my aussie bit%% brudder.:P
juz hope it wunt be too crowded n ns boy infested.
if it is.....................................
POKER TIME.:P
heh.:)
man i so wan sum chill out time.:)
really hope i get a good weekend.:) bringin my family out for dinner this weekend too.:)
much love that way.:)
its feels SO DAM GOOD to be outta camp.
:P
Monday, December 18, 2006
FINALLY.an update
before i start,
song of the moment.:P
SUGARCULT's MEMORY
This may never start.
We could fall apart.
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?
So get back, back,
back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.
This may never start.
I'll tear us apart.
Can I be your enemy?
Losing half a year.
Waiting for you here
I'd be your anything.
So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.
This may never start.
Tearing out my heart.
I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.(I'd be your memory)
Feelings disappeared.
Can I be your memory?
So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.
This may never start.
We could fall apart
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?
Can I be your memory?
no meanin whatsoever,
but go downld the acoustic version.
1 x (y)
heh.
life been good as of late.
im now the overworked n underpaid ops spec in 3da.
life is stressful cuz i work under e 3rd muz impt dude n he's got a megalomaniac complex tad is quite freaky on his underlings.
so we work under constant fear each day.
we get really short lunch breaks cuz we're understaffed.
so lunch is insteada 1.5 hrs is like .5 hrs instead.
which sucks big blue thumbs pls.
otherwise.
im gettin better at wow.
i've rolled a 2nd char so yea.:P
levellin it up alot fast den my 1st 2.
beyond that.
nothing much.
im no longer wit qi.
so you pple can stop askin me whether im still wit her wenever you see her wit other guys.
i appreciate the gesture tho.:))
makes me know im loved.:))
druggie's finally back in singapore.
slept at 11 last nite,
woke up at 430 to shower n get ready,
den went to the mrt to catch the 1st train down cuz her flight was supposed to land at 630.
looked at the 1st train timin the timign to get the airport,
realised there's no way in the cold blue hell i was gonna reach there in time,
got off the platform,cabbed there wit ruddy midnight surcharge still on(yes it was dam bloody early),
den went to the airport to walk anrd n wait.:))
finally saw her.:)) gave my regards n headed to fysh's to chill out before headin home.
i realise in life change is inevitable.
n i dunno why i resist it so.
even wen its for the better,
its for my own personal good,
i resist change.
n while the world moves on,
i get left behind n have only myself to blame.
this cant go on.
i wanna be able to achieve better things.
n the state i am now will not have tad kinda results.
simply stated.
either i change or condemn myself.
all in all.
life's been good.
my 2 closer female frens in pj who went overseas are back so there's a lil more cheer in me.
my sista aint comin back.:(
im not exactly enthralled wit my job but as with the sayin i've learnt,
"when shit comes,it comes in hugeass lumps"
so yea.
not exactly awe inspirin words,
but defintely very VERY true.
it never comes in lil bits tad you can handle.
song of the moment.:P
SUGARCULT's MEMORY
This may never start.
We could fall apart.
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?
So get back, back,
back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.
This may never start.
I'll tear us apart.
Can I be your enemy?
Losing half a year.
Waiting for you here
I'd be your anything.
So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.
This may never start.
Tearing out my heart.
I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.(I'd be your memory)
Feelings disappeared.
Can I be your memory?
So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.
This may never start.
We could fall apart
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?
Can I be your memory?
no meanin whatsoever,
but go downld the acoustic version.
1 x (y)
heh.
life been good as of late.
im now the overworked n underpaid ops spec in 3da.
life is stressful cuz i work under e 3rd muz impt dude n he's got a megalomaniac complex tad is quite freaky on his underlings.
so we work under constant fear each day.
we get really short lunch breaks cuz we're understaffed.
so lunch is insteada 1.5 hrs is like .5 hrs instead.
which sucks big blue thumbs pls.
otherwise.
im gettin better at wow.
i've rolled a 2nd char so yea.:P
levellin it up alot fast den my 1st 2.
beyond that.
nothing much.
im no longer wit qi.
so you pple can stop askin me whether im still wit her wenever you see her wit other guys.
i appreciate the gesture tho.:))
makes me know im loved.:))
druggie's finally back in singapore.
slept at 11 last nite,
woke up at 430 to shower n get ready,
den went to the mrt to catch the 1st train down cuz her flight was supposed to land at 630.
looked at the 1st train timin the timign to get the airport,
realised there's no way in the cold blue hell i was gonna reach there in time,
got off the platform,cabbed there wit ruddy midnight surcharge still on(yes it was dam bloody early),
den went to the airport to walk anrd n wait.:))
finally saw her.:)) gave my regards n headed to fysh's to chill out before headin home.
i realise in life change is inevitable.
n i dunno why i resist it so.
even wen its for the better,
its for my own personal good,
i resist change.
n while the world moves on,
i get left behind n have only myself to blame.
this cant go on.
i wanna be able to achieve better things.
n the state i am now will not have tad kinda results.
simply stated.
either i change or condemn myself.
all in all.
life's been good.
my 2 closer female frens in pj who went overseas are back so there's a lil more cheer in me.
my sista aint comin back.:(
im not exactly enthralled wit my job but as with the sayin i've learnt,
"when shit comes,it comes in hugeass lumps"
so yea.
not exactly awe inspirin words,
but defintely very VERY true.
it never comes in lil bits tad you can handle.
Friday, November 24, 2006
frustration
so much has been happenin lately.
i dunno why but im juz so filled wit frsutration im totally annoyed.
like bite your head off in 1 big chomp kinda pissed off.
sighz.
niwaez.
update on me now.
i've graduated my course in AFS,
im now in 3DA,my last n final postin,where i'll get my 3rd n hopefully 4th stripe.
i got posted to OPs room,which means i work ina office kinda environment,
workin directly under a major.
the major's a MAJOR pain in the ass,so it aint exactly a good thing.
good thing is tad i dun pull tad many duties so i oughta be able to get my weekends pretty frequently.
which if i had gone to either missle batteries insteada overseein em like im doin now,i wouldnt haf.
i dunno why im so frustrated actually.
i should be rejoicing.
but im still feelin disruntled.
maybe its the pple im posted with.
in this move to the ops room,
im seperated from my closest course mates n their enjoyments,
the tv,dvds n all the other nonsense tad we do in AFS.
stuff tad i was so lookin forward to wen i came to unit.
things wit qi are also extremely frustratin.
the line tad was so clearly drawn once has eroded to sumthin so insignificant.
i myself dun know where i stand anymore.
n i dunno wad im doin.
i feel hopeless n helpless.
sighz.
screw it.
im done talkin.
coupla pics from the past coupla weeks.
i dunno why but im juz so filled wit frsutration im totally annoyed.
like bite your head off in 1 big chomp kinda pissed off.
sighz.
niwaez.
update on me now.
i've graduated my course in AFS,
im now in 3DA,my last n final postin,where i'll get my 3rd n hopefully 4th stripe.
i got posted to OPs room,which means i work ina office kinda environment,
workin directly under a major.
the major's a MAJOR pain in the ass,so it aint exactly a good thing.
good thing is tad i dun pull tad many duties so i oughta be able to get my weekends pretty frequently.
which if i had gone to either missle batteries insteada overseein em like im doin now,i wouldnt haf.
i dunno why im so frustrated actually.
i should be rejoicing.
but im still feelin disruntled.
maybe its the pple im posted with.
in this move to the ops room,
im seperated from my closest course mates n their enjoyments,
the tv,dvds n all the other nonsense tad we do in AFS.
stuff tad i was so lookin forward to wen i came to unit.
things wit qi are also extremely frustratin.
the line tad was so clearly drawn once has eroded to sumthin so insignificant.
i myself dun know where i stand anymore.
n i dunno wad im doin.
i feel hopeless n helpless.
sighz.
screw it.
im done talkin.
coupla pics from the past coupla weeks.
Sunday, November 05, 2006
Friday, November 03, 2006
at long last
heh.
as i juz got cussed on my own blog fer not updatin,
(fer fysh's entertainment wen wow is down fer maintainence i suspect.:P)
i shall update now.
heh.
the reasonf er the lack of updates is cuz i've been wowin on the weekends n the com here in AFS doesnt allow you to log into blogger fer sum security reason,
which is quite absurd since they allow us to send mail n its alot easier to sent sensitive material thru email den to do it via blogger dun you tink so?
but yea.
nuf with the outta pointness.
im currently doni this via email,
typin this via yahoo mail n sendin it to my self so wen i book out all i needta do is copy n paste n backdate it to the corect date.
reason:i dun wanna gif up wow time.
its the 1st time im up to such a high level the feelin's exhileratin.
this is the furthest i've been in the game n the feelin is quite shiok.
imma shadow priest,an officer in the guild(which i 70+% singaporean),maxed out both my professions,which i've never done before in all my yrs playin via my stupid alaraintok.
so yea.
im really really happy wit the way things are turnin out fer me in the game now.
wen i get abck all i needta do is level 1.2 times n i oughta be able to take part in the zg raid alr.
which is awesomely 1137 cuz i've never done a raid before.
EPIX here i come.
wad else is new in my life.
hmmm.
this being wednesday mornin.
as of today,
im officailly no longer wit miss qq.
reasons i shall not cite cuz i told myself tad its my fault as much as anybody's.
so i shall juz keep my mouth shut.
but yea.
its official,
its infal,n its over.
im fine,im okie,im numb.
reason will be explained later.
you know.
its been such a long time since i've updated this thing.
i found myself wantin to update this wen a certain sum1 left in her honor,
but up till today,
i've yet to do so cuza WoW.
i shall do it now.
in the past 3 months,
i've lost almuz all the close non attached to me famels in my life in one sense or the other.
druggie left 1st,
maisie 2nd,
n now jie,juz last fri.
one reason why i'm so cold regardin the break is cuz i haf no more emotional energy left to feel anithin aft jie left.
the number of females i hold in my confidence are few n far between.
lets try listin em.
hmmm.
jie,ma,druggie,maise,g,rah(if she would bother to pick up the phone),n maybe one or two other in my pj frens n elsewhere tad are stil findin my way into full confidence.
yea.
literally a handful.
so yea.
their leaving has affected me alot.
i dunno why it is so.
this pple are the pple i go to wenever i feel down,
wenever i juz need to be TOTALLY n ABSOLUTELY truthful fer comfort n hopefully a solution or insight tad would point me the rte way.
the fact tad i can be so comfortable arnd em allows em to say perfunctuary statements tad lead to my eventual realisation of solutions n hard facts pertainin to the situation tad i hafta face despite denyin em fer ages.
of those liestedn
i dun tink there's one tad has not heard of my problems wit qi at one point or another.
they all dun haf the full picture,
as i go to a different everytime sumthin pops up so as to get a totally neutral perspective,n at the same time protect qi but yea.no avail.wad's done's done.
comin back to the topic at hand.
since i'ce written sumthin fer druggie alr.
here's sumthin fer mei.
that meal we went out fer's probably sumthin i'll remember fer the longest time.
i doubt you realise it,but its only the 2nd time we've ever been out together to actually sit down n talk witout pple's eyes on us.
the 1st been way back in sec 4 wen we were out shoppin fer sutff to bring fer retreat in june but never did end up buyin anythin n i remember you made me wait fer FORTY-FIVE MINS n arrived witout a ruffle in your hair,no apologies n juz said "lets go"
hahaha.
i can still remember fumin inside at far east's lobby.
den quitely followin you as you went out lookin fer your stuff.
i remember not really havin to buy anithin,but juz wantin to go out wit you.
those were innocent joyous days i guess.
i can still remember REAL days,
where we all saw each other almuz everyday,3 months at a go.
i remember how you would always rush into class late,
how you,jie n jeanie n sam would juz talk amongst yourselves whilst i hadta forge out an altogether new brotherhood wit clemon,blindly gropin outa way whilst i envied the intimacy tad was already in place wit ya'll.
i still remember tad bus ride wit your brother where you look clem in the face and said to me n your bro."never mind,clemon like me wad.rite clem."
n suddenly he turned beetred n you had abosolutely no clue you hit the nail rite on the head n i juz laffed till i turned blue whilst your brother turned to you n siad "wah kaoz,you're really too much"n watched you turned away.
made fer a extrememyl awkward yet entertainin bus ride.
i recall the jc yrs,where we slowly grew apart,you wit your dance life n all,me wit my hockey.
how we would rarely talk,but how we always seem to click wen united fer any project by church,be it dance or wadsoever.
effortlessly i would say.
how as we matured,so did our conversations,our mannerisms n the way we treat each other.
lastly,that meal we went out fer before you left,
how the auntie came out n teased us to no end.
left me rollin wit lafta as we bother desperately tried to convinced her i was attached n you had your boy.
tinkin bout the auntie who kapped a lil our our ice cream still puts a smile on my face.
you're missed maisie.
i was talkin to your brother aft you left whilst online.
i asked him"do you miss her alr"
he replied flatly"not really.pls lo.i tink you miss her more den i do"
i came up wit sum lame retort n went back to WoWing.
heh.
in tad sense i guess imma lil emotional boy.
i miss pple easily.
esp the ones i truly care for n look out fer.
you're one of those.:)) n i'll be waitin to take you out wen you finally come back,all the world wiser n ready to take on wadever challenges comes your wy.
but you know wad?
above all?
i'll miss those smges.
on those lonely 190 bus rides,tad wenever it rains,
if you're out there in a bus ride,
you would msg me sumthin totally sincere n sombre.
n i would always smile to myself aboard the bus,
reply wit sumthin befittin your honesty n juz feel contented knowin you.
tad's a lil magic tad i always treasure.
as fer jie.
dear jie.
i would always be your pillar of strength.
no matter wadever mite stumble you.
call to me n i'll be there.
as yourself.
i have similair regrets.
i regret not spendin enuf time wit you,
not caterin my free time to you.
we both made that mistake i guess.
in out worldly pursuits be neglected the person tad means the must to us.
i rmember only the few instances where i've been able to be there fer you,
comin home from sch n seein you sobbin by your bedside over a certain person,
gently strokin out your hair whilst you sobbed.
i remember not doin the same wen zn happened,
cuz i didnt see you react,
n tot you were okay.
but knowin now tad emotions cant be ignored,only sotred,wishin i had helped you overcome it n move along you way.
i remember goin to all your performances,albeit a lil reluctanlty,cuza computer or girls or wadever,but i would eventually be there to support you grudginly but always wen im there,screamin out fer you,
feelin as proud fer you as can be.
esp all those handbells recitals you had way back in mg.
i never told you how proud i was to have a sister who could do all tad.
you looked up to mariko.
i wonder if you ever knew how many pple look up to you the way you did her n you maintain oblivious to it all.
you're missed jie.
i realised sumthin spiritually about me in the car ride down to sendin you off.
i can only be an instrument of God in prayer wen i truly care fer tad person.
before i opened my mouth,
i didnt haf a clue as to wad to pray.
but yet wen i said the 1st line,.
qoutin the muz simplest of all verses,
you showed me where my limitations in paryer were n how to make the best o it.
up till today,
i still can rememeber how the tears rolled down my face in the car as i prayed.
my words were flat,
not emotionall evokin words,but the tears,anabashed,unfettered n unspoiled,they rolled for the loss of your physical presence in my life.
tad inevitable surrender to God's will tad none of us had a say in.
i threw away all illusiions of granduer,of being able to protect you cuz i kew i wouldnt be able to,n cried to God in surrender,liftin you into His arms.
i never knew i could cry like tad.
aft tad prayer,i told myself to be strong,your frens were goin to be at the airport,i wouldnt show weakness.
but as you finally broke down before stoppin thru,
strangly i felt no fear,no pain.
but wen ou entered the glass door,waved goodbye,wen you finally disappeared outta my sight,
despite myself.
the tears rolled down infronta everyone.
my weakness fer everyone to see.
my weakness is my love.
mylove for you,
for pa,ma,ernie,fer everyone i hold dear.
woe be to the person who abuses the love.
outta weakness i find my strength.
n i juz pray God take care of you.
to thses 3 very special pple in foreign lands.
may God keep you n bless you greatly.
know tad everynite befopre i go to bed.
each n everyone of you spend more den 1 min in my prayers
take care o yourselves.
n wen you call come back,
may ya'll be stronger in faith,
wiser in stature,
still tad same sum1 special.
imma sign off soon.
tml beings my outfiedl.
goin out to amoy guee camp to pitch tents all over again n sleep on mud.
back to the basics i guess.
same thing repeated the wholea next week n life'll be good.
its the 1st of nov today,time wen i began this entry's 1245.:))
be seein ya'll soon on the weekend.
till then.:))
as i juz got cussed on my own blog fer not updatin,
(fer fysh's entertainment wen wow is down fer maintainence i suspect.:P)
i shall update now.
heh.
the reasonf er the lack of updates is cuz i've been wowin on the weekends n the com here in AFS doesnt allow you to log into blogger fer sum security reason,
which is quite absurd since they allow us to send mail n its alot easier to sent sensitive material thru email den to do it via blogger dun you tink so?
but yea.
nuf with the outta pointness.
im currently doni this via email,
typin this via yahoo mail n sendin it to my self so wen i book out all i needta do is copy n paste n backdate it to the corect date.
reason:i dun wanna gif up wow time.
its the 1st time im up to such a high level the feelin's exhileratin.
this is the furthest i've been in the game n the feelin is quite shiok.
imma shadow priest,an officer in the guild(which i 70+% singaporean),maxed out both my professions,which i've never done before in all my yrs playin via my stupid alaraintok.
so yea.
im really really happy wit the way things are turnin out fer me in the game now.
wen i get abck all i needta do is level 1.2 times n i oughta be able to take part in the zg raid alr.
which is awesomely 1137 cuz i've never done a raid before.
EPIX here i come.
wad else is new in my life.
hmmm.
this being wednesday mornin.
as of today,
im officailly no longer wit miss qq.
reasons i shall not cite cuz i told myself tad its my fault as much as anybody's.
so i shall juz keep my mouth shut.
but yea.
its official,
its infal,n its over.
im fine,im okie,im numb.
reason will be explained later.
you know.
its been such a long time since i've updated this thing.
i found myself wantin to update this wen a certain sum1 left in her honor,
but up till today,
i've yet to do so cuza WoW.
i shall do it now.
in the past 3 months,
i've lost almuz all the close non attached to me famels in my life in one sense or the other.
druggie left 1st,
maisie 2nd,
n now jie,juz last fri.
one reason why i'm so cold regardin the break is cuz i haf no more emotional energy left to feel anithin aft jie left.
the number of females i hold in my confidence are few n far between.
lets try listin em.
hmmm.
jie,ma,druggie,maise,g,rah(if she would bother to pick up the phone),n maybe one or two other in my pj frens n elsewhere tad are stil findin my way into full confidence.
yea.
literally a handful.
so yea.
their leaving has affected me alot.
i dunno why it is so.
this pple are the pple i go to wenever i feel down,
wenever i juz need to be TOTALLY n ABSOLUTELY truthful fer comfort n hopefully a solution or insight tad would point me the rte way.
the fact tad i can be so comfortable arnd em allows em to say perfunctuary statements tad lead to my eventual realisation of solutions n hard facts pertainin to the situation tad i hafta face despite denyin em fer ages.
of those liestedn
i dun tink there's one tad has not heard of my problems wit qi at one point or another.
they all dun haf the full picture,
as i go to a different everytime sumthin pops up so as to get a totally neutral perspective,n at the same time protect qi but yea.no avail.wad's done's done.
comin back to the topic at hand.
since i'ce written sumthin fer druggie alr.
here's sumthin fer mei.
that meal we went out fer's probably sumthin i'll remember fer the longest time.
i doubt you realise it,but its only the 2nd time we've ever been out together to actually sit down n talk witout pple's eyes on us.
the 1st been way back in sec 4 wen we were out shoppin fer sutff to bring fer retreat in june but never did end up buyin anythin n i remember you made me wait fer FORTY-FIVE MINS n arrived witout a ruffle in your hair,no apologies n juz said "lets go"
hahaha.
i can still remember fumin inside at far east's lobby.
den quitely followin you as you went out lookin fer your stuff.
i remember not really havin to buy anithin,but juz wantin to go out wit you.
those were innocent joyous days i guess.
i can still remember REAL days,
where we all saw each other almuz everyday,3 months at a go.
i remember how you would always rush into class late,
how you,jie n jeanie n sam would juz talk amongst yourselves whilst i hadta forge out an altogether new brotherhood wit clemon,blindly gropin outa way whilst i envied the intimacy tad was already in place wit ya'll.
i still remember tad bus ride wit your brother where you look clem in the face and said to me n your bro."never mind,clemon like me wad.rite clem."
n suddenly he turned beetred n you had abosolutely no clue you hit the nail rite on the head n i juz laffed till i turned blue whilst your brother turned to you n siad "wah kaoz,you're really too much"n watched you turned away.
made fer a extrememyl awkward yet entertainin bus ride.
i recall the jc yrs,where we slowly grew apart,you wit your dance life n all,me wit my hockey.
how we would rarely talk,but how we always seem to click wen united fer any project by church,be it dance or wadsoever.
effortlessly i would say.
how as we matured,so did our conversations,our mannerisms n the way we treat each other.
lastly,that meal we went out fer before you left,
how the auntie came out n teased us to no end.
left me rollin wit lafta as we bother desperately tried to convinced her i was attached n you had your boy.
tinkin bout the auntie who kapped a lil our our ice cream still puts a smile on my face.
you're missed maisie.
i was talkin to your brother aft you left whilst online.
i asked him"do you miss her alr"
he replied flatly"not really.pls lo.i tink you miss her more den i do"
i came up wit sum lame retort n went back to WoWing.
heh.
in tad sense i guess imma lil emotional boy.
i miss pple easily.
esp the ones i truly care for n look out fer.
you're one of those.:)) n i'll be waitin to take you out wen you finally come back,all the world wiser n ready to take on wadever challenges comes your wy.
but you know wad?
above all?
i'll miss those smges.
on those lonely 190 bus rides,tad wenever it rains,
if you're out there in a bus ride,
you would msg me sumthin totally sincere n sombre.
n i would always smile to myself aboard the bus,
reply wit sumthin befittin your honesty n juz feel contented knowin you.
tad's a lil magic tad i always treasure.
as fer jie.
dear jie.
i would always be your pillar of strength.
no matter wadever mite stumble you.
call to me n i'll be there.
as yourself.
i have similair regrets.
i regret not spendin enuf time wit you,
not caterin my free time to you.
we both made that mistake i guess.
in out worldly pursuits be neglected the person tad means the must to us.
i rmember only the few instances where i've been able to be there fer you,
comin home from sch n seein you sobbin by your bedside over a certain person,
gently strokin out your hair whilst you sobbed.
i remember not doin the same wen zn happened,
cuz i didnt see you react,
n tot you were okay.
but knowin now tad emotions cant be ignored,only sotred,wishin i had helped you overcome it n move along you way.
i remember goin to all your performances,albeit a lil reluctanlty,cuza computer or girls or wadever,but i would eventually be there to support you grudginly but always wen im there,screamin out fer you,
feelin as proud fer you as can be.
esp all those handbells recitals you had way back in mg.
i never told you how proud i was to have a sister who could do all tad.
you looked up to mariko.
i wonder if you ever knew how many pple look up to you the way you did her n you maintain oblivious to it all.
you're missed jie.
i realised sumthin spiritually about me in the car ride down to sendin you off.
i can only be an instrument of God in prayer wen i truly care fer tad person.
before i opened my mouth,
i didnt haf a clue as to wad to pray.
but yet wen i said the 1st line,.
qoutin the muz simplest of all verses,
you showed me where my limitations in paryer were n how to make the best o it.
up till today,
i still can rememeber how the tears rolled down my face in the car as i prayed.
my words were flat,
not emotionall evokin words,but the tears,anabashed,unfettered n unspoiled,they rolled for the loss of your physical presence in my life.
tad inevitable surrender to God's will tad none of us had a say in.
i threw away all illusiions of granduer,of being able to protect you cuz i kew i wouldnt be able to,n cried to God in surrender,liftin you into His arms.
i never knew i could cry like tad.
aft tad prayer,i told myself to be strong,your frens were goin to be at the airport,i wouldnt show weakness.
but as you finally broke down before stoppin thru,
strangly i felt no fear,no pain.
but wen ou entered the glass door,waved goodbye,wen you finally disappeared outta my sight,
despite myself.
the tears rolled down infronta everyone.
my weakness fer everyone to see.
my weakness is my love.
mylove for you,
for pa,ma,ernie,fer everyone i hold dear.
woe be to the person who abuses the love.
outta weakness i find my strength.
n i juz pray God take care of you.
to thses 3 very special pple in foreign lands.
may God keep you n bless you greatly.
know tad everynite befopre i go to bed.
each n everyone of you spend more den 1 min in my prayers
take care o yourselves.
n wen you call come back,
may ya'll be stronger in faith,
wiser in stature,
still tad same sum1 special.
imma sign off soon.
tml beings my outfiedl.
goin out to amoy guee camp to pitch tents all over again n sleep on mud.
back to the basics i guess.
same thing repeated the wholea next week n life'll be good.
its the 1st of nov today,time wen i began this entry's 1245.:))
be seein ya'll soon on the weekend.
till then.:))
Friday, September 22, 2006
update!!!:)
heh.its been like forever since i came here to speak my mind.
heh.been too distracted wit wow i swear.
niwaez.
air force has been good to me i guess.
swear im gettin fat man.
a basic day would start at 530,
have us doin 5 bx plus a 2.4-3.2km run,
followed by breakfast n den back to bunk to sleep till about 730 before you wake up n do are cleanin n den get ready for lessons.
the lessons are muzly mentally taxing.
stayin awake's a major problem man.
the exams come at you fast n furious,
i have one next week once i book in again.
roughly in a single week we have a bout 3-4 exams,
all extremely important n wit OOC potential.
(OOC-out o course,i.e you fail n wait 3 more months to redo everythin again.)
muz days we end at bout 530-6 less those days we haf exms where we take the exams till about 8 plus.
den we usually head to the gym to round off the day before heading to air force one mess to enjoy a beer n sing karaoke.
sounds like good life huh??
heh.
not really.
countin i dun drink beer which is the only liqour there,
i'm not much of a karoke person,
im usually too shacked to hit the gym tho i make sure i play soccer everyday,
basically,the studyin can kill pls.:@:@:@:@
i dun mind physical.
physical = good.
FABB= FOR A BETTER BODY!!!!huzzah!
yea.i suscribe to tad ideal.
pain is welcome.hahaha
considering at the end of course we hafta run 10k at about less den 5 min per k,
im guessin its only natural i gotta start buildin up now.
life is good.
got another 4 k run tml at safti again.
oh wells.
SAF's gota whole loadsa runs.
annoyin i swear.
:@@:@:
hey to nat,est n D.:))
heh.been too distracted wit wow i swear.
niwaez.
air force has been good to me i guess.
swear im gettin fat man.
a basic day would start at 530,
have us doin 5 bx plus a 2.4-3.2km run,
followed by breakfast n den back to bunk to sleep till about 730 before you wake up n do are cleanin n den get ready for lessons.
the lessons are muzly mentally taxing.
stayin awake's a major problem man.
the exams come at you fast n furious,
i have one next week once i book in again.
roughly in a single week we have a bout 3-4 exams,
all extremely important n wit OOC potential.
(OOC-out o course,i.e you fail n wait 3 more months to redo everythin again.)
muz days we end at bout 530-6 less those days we haf exms where we take the exams till about 8 plus.
den we usually head to the gym to round off the day before heading to air force one mess to enjoy a beer n sing karaoke.
sounds like good life huh??
heh.
not really.
countin i dun drink beer which is the only liqour there,
i'm not much of a karoke person,
im usually too shacked to hit the gym tho i make sure i play soccer everyday,
basically,the studyin can kill pls.:@:@:@:@
i dun mind physical.
physical = good.
FABB= FOR A BETTER BODY!!!!huzzah!
yea.i suscribe to tad ideal.
pain is welcome.hahaha
considering at the end of course we hafta run 10k at about less den 5 min per k,
im guessin its only natural i gotta start buildin up now.
life is good.
got another 4 k run tml at safti again.
oh wells.
SAF's gota whole loadsa runs.
annoyin i swear.
:@@:@:
hey to nat,est n D.:))
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Cpl Ben off to the Air Force.
i slept on wed nite at 3,woke up at 530.
went for a 28k route march tad commenced at 9 in the evenin.
n marched all thru the nite.
came back.
stood still for more den half an hour,
pinned on my 2 stripes.
went back to bunk,
did area cleaning n stores cleanin for a good 10 hrs before i was allowed to leave.
sat in fear as the postins were read out.
prayin tad i wunt get aslc.
rejoiced wen i was posted to TAFS.
which stands fer sumthin air force school.
took a cab home,
showered.
wowed till 4 in the mornin.
woke up at 8 to help look aft ernest who had his gifted exam test.
den wowed till 6 while keepin him company.
den rushed down to zouk for the bash.
so basically,
i've been awake for close to 72 hrs on juz 4 hrs of sleep.
ghey.
:(
niwaez.
im a cpl!!!:))
half a sgt.
happy i am to leave sispec.
forsaken place.
sighz.
but plab is really incredibly far.
prob take me about an hr n a half to reach tad place.
oh well.
but at least i get to wear sumthin else besides the green uniform.
n my beret's special.
so at least there's a lil pride i guess.
hmm.
shacked.
tml still got run in the mornin.
oh wellz.
bleah.
nite.
went for a 28k route march tad commenced at 9 in the evenin.
n marched all thru the nite.
came back.
stood still for more den half an hour,
pinned on my 2 stripes.
went back to bunk,
did area cleaning n stores cleanin for a good 10 hrs before i was allowed to leave.
sat in fear as the postins were read out.
prayin tad i wunt get aslc.
rejoiced wen i was posted to TAFS.
which stands fer sumthin air force school.
took a cab home,
showered.
wowed till 4 in the mornin.
woke up at 8 to help look aft ernest who had his gifted exam test.
den wowed till 6 while keepin him company.
den rushed down to zouk for the bash.
so basically,
i've been awake for close to 72 hrs on juz 4 hrs of sleep.
ghey.
:(
niwaez.
im a cpl!!!:))
half a sgt.
happy i am to leave sispec.
forsaken place.
sighz.
but plab is really incredibly far.
prob take me about an hr n a half to reach tad place.
oh well.
but at least i get to wear sumthin else besides the green uniform.
n my beret's special.
so at least there's a lil pride i guess.
hmm.
shacked.
tml still got run in the mornin.
oh wellz.
bleah.
nite.
Friday, August 18, 2006
the 2nd part
hmm.
here be the 2nd part o the entry tad was supposed to be completed the nite before.
heh.
been too engrossed wit tryin to get my new WoW char levelled up.
here goes.
its been a long time since i did sumthin like tad so excuse the coarseness of things.
the kite flyer
skies of the deepest blue,
edges tinged wit lighter hues,
an open plain of moving grass,
leaves' dew shinin like polished glass.
he stepped forward upon the field,
a young man wit his own time to kill,
in his hand he held a spool n kite,
he thought he mite wanna take it for a flight.
he tied the spool to himself,
fastened his belt loop thru its well,
loosened the line n began to run,
his sweat glistened under the mornin's sun.
little by little the kite bobbed n swayed,
he kept runnin,not wantin to let it fall away,
den soon the kite began to soar,
he could slow down n appreciate wad his efforts had been for.
the line was slack in his hands,
he could drag it wherever he went,
to the left or to the right,
the kite was never outta his sight.
but the kite soon flew up high,
where the currents soon swept it across the skies,
the line became taut in his hands,
he made effort to regain control again.
but the wind juz kept goin on,
all he could do was juz hold on,
he found himself runnin all over the plain,
the effort had him labourin in pain.
the line began to cut his palm,
streaks of blood began to run,
still he wouldnt let it go,
tad kite meant dearly to him so.
he kept lookin at the skies up high,
hopin tad the end of the wind would be nigh,
but juz wen the wind suddenly seemed to slack,
before he could do anithin,it would juz be back.
pain etched his features,
tears began to run,
suddenly kiteflyin didnt seem,
all tad fun.
but tad kite,
he wouldnt let go,
he worked so hard for it,
to him it was gold.
tis went on for the longest time,
till finally it all took a toll on his mind,
his hands were numb from the loss of blood,
the pain so evident had become dark.
he found himself numb,
juz holdin on,
found a place to sit down,
a shelter from the storm.
the string still he wouldnt release,
he knew the kite'll come back if it pleased,
he wanted to be there to pick it up before it hit the ground,
to him it called him witout a sound.
some called him stupid,
some a fool,
why hold on to something,
tad doesnt hold on to you.
why the agony,
wen the rest await,
lined up on racks,
cash you didnt hafta pay.
juz outside the field,
the kites mingled,
pickin one out,
it would be single.
but the kiteflyer wouldnt let this one slip away,
not aft all he'd done to have things this way.
the run he took to get it to fly,
he held on to the line wit a grip tad'll never die.
till this day he still holds on,
starin at the kite still flyin high.
buffeted by the high winds,
the line still is taut,
the pain it causes,
the damage is wrought.
few can understand,
tho many more wonder why,
he hopes so much,
why he wouldnt let it die.
tad's the secret the kiteflyer keeps,
for in his heart is an emotion so deep,
an attachment to his kite beyond logic,
he only prays it returns before he gets too weak.
the end.
hmmm.
not too shabby for sum1 so outta practise i believe.:))
hmmm.
time's tickin away.
my baby's asleep behind me.
contentment describes how i've been for the past 2 days.
luxurious indulgence being able to seem perpertually in her company.
the troubles always seem to start wen we're not in each other's presence.
trust is such a valuable thing in a relationship i believe.
once its gone,
tad's wen insecurity,suspicion n eventual hurt n all tad kinda nonsense begins.
to all out there attached.
build the trust.
it could mean the world.:))
take tad from a learned soul wit about 3 days exp behind him.
imma send her to he next lesson.
n its back to Wow for me.
at least dwellin in the pits wunt be lonely wit WoW.:))
the world is your oyster,
IF n only IF you know howta shuck it.:))
sorry to maise regardin the party last nite.
really too late an invite for me to really stand a chance to go.
:))
heh.old fashioned parents need about 2,3 days warnin in advance la.:))
but i still love mummy n daddy all the same.:))
HAHAHa
:L)
shall send baby to class now.:))
tataz all.
here be the 2nd part o the entry tad was supposed to be completed the nite before.
heh.
been too engrossed wit tryin to get my new WoW char levelled up.
here goes.
its been a long time since i did sumthin like tad so excuse the coarseness of things.
the kite flyer
skies of the deepest blue,
edges tinged wit lighter hues,
an open plain of moving grass,
leaves' dew shinin like polished glass.
he stepped forward upon the field,
a young man wit his own time to kill,
in his hand he held a spool n kite,
he thought he mite wanna take it for a flight.
he tied the spool to himself,
fastened his belt loop thru its well,
loosened the line n began to run,
his sweat glistened under the mornin's sun.
little by little the kite bobbed n swayed,
he kept runnin,not wantin to let it fall away,
den soon the kite began to soar,
he could slow down n appreciate wad his efforts had been for.
the line was slack in his hands,
he could drag it wherever he went,
to the left or to the right,
the kite was never outta his sight.
but the kite soon flew up high,
where the currents soon swept it across the skies,
the line became taut in his hands,
he made effort to regain control again.
but the wind juz kept goin on,
all he could do was juz hold on,
he found himself runnin all over the plain,
the effort had him labourin in pain.
the line began to cut his palm,
streaks of blood began to run,
still he wouldnt let it go,
tad kite meant dearly to him so.
he kept lookin at the skies up high,
hopin tad the end of the wind would be nigh,
but juz wen the wind suddenly seemed to slack,
before he could do anithin,it would juz be back.
pain etched his features,
tears began to run,
suddenly kiteflyin didnt seem,
all tad fun.
but tad kite,
he wouldnt let go,
he worked so hard for it,
to him it was gold.
tis went on for the longest time,
till finally it all took a toll on his mind,
his hands were numb from the loss of blood,
the pain so evident had become dark.
he found himself numb,
juz holdin on,
found a place to sit down,
a shelter from the storm.
the string still he wouldnt release,
he knew the kite'll come back if it pleased,
he wanted to be there to pick it up before it hit the ground,
to him it called him witout a sound.
some called him stupid,
some a fool,
why hold on to something,
tad doesnt hold on to you.
why the agony,
wen the rest await,
lined up on racks,
cash you didnt hafta pay.
juz outside the field,
the kites mingled,
pickin one out,
it would be single.
but the kiteflyer wouldnt let this one slip away,
not aft all he'd done to have things this way.
the run he took to get it to fly,
he held on to the line wit a grip tad'll never die.
till this day he still holds on,
starin at the kite still flyin high.
buffeted by the high winds,
the line still is taut,
the pain it causes,
the damage is wrought.
few can understand,
tho many more wonder why,
he hopes so much,
why he wouldnt let it die.
tad's the secret the kiteflyer keeps,
for in his heart is an emotion so deep,
an attachment to his kite beyond logic,
he only prays it returns before he gets too weak.
the end.
hmmm.
not too shabby for sum1 so outta practise i believe.:))
hmmm.
time's tickin away.
my baby's asleep behind me.
contentment describes how i've been for the past 2 days.
luxurious indulgence being able to seem perpertually in her company.
the troubles always seem to start wen we're not in each other's presence.
trust is such a valuable thing in a relationship i believe.
once its gone,
tad's wen insecurity,suspicion n eventual hurt n all tad kinda nonsense begins.
to all out there attached.
build the trust.
it could mean the world.:))
take tad from a learned soul wit about 3 days exp behind him.
imma send her to he next lesson.
n its back to Wow for me.
at least dwellin in the pits wunt be lonely wit WoW.:))
the world is your oyster,
IF n only IF you know howta shuck it.:))
sorry to maise regardin the party last nite.
really too late an invite for me to really stand a chance to go.
:))
heh.old fashioned parents need about 2,3 days warnin in advance la.:))
but i still love mummy n daddy all the same.:))
HAHAHa
:L)
shall send baby to class now.:))
tataz all.
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
2 odes today
tis shal be a 2 part post.
one now,for someone's who's on a airplane,
and another much later in the nite wen my baby be in a club to while the time away waitin.
an ode for the special friend.
you're prob the closest thing to a brother tad a female can possibly to me.
i can still remember how we met juz like it was yest.
we were juz recallin it not so many nites ago.
how i exclaimed to fysh "wad e ...she's a dancer???!?!?!"
fond memories.
thanks fer the times spent toget.
juz chillin n being open wit each other about our problems,
all the emo stuff,
never scoldin each other regardin the foolish stuff we do in the learnin journey called life,
never commentin on the actions we take but juz makin sure we pick each other up n ready ourselves for the next charge.
the advice we dish out to each other always taken into consideration,
for tad mutual respect tad always existed.
the walks to dion's,
the walks to rafiq's,
the sessions with eric,
the time spent in sch tryin to study toget,
the whinin,
the walks arnd sch tryin to get the brain to unfreeze,
thanks for bein the friend who's ALWAYS been there.
i dun tink there's been one time tad i've looked fer you n you weren't there to spare me a lil time.
be it when i was feelin glum juz to talk on the phone,
wen i was lookin for company to go jalan with,
you've always been there.
and i thank you for tad.
you made me feel equal.
more den tad,
you make me feel like i matter.
you make me feel special.
you've been one of the truest if not the truest friends i ever had.
i only wished i had taken a photo wit you before you boarded tad plane tis mornin.
thanks for everythin.
the Lord's blessins upon you over there.
dun forget wad i said about peer pressure.
i wouldnt wan you to suddenly change.
:))
thanks fer it all druggie.
good luck over there.
im pretty sure the place is better den here.:))
call me wen you're back aight??:))
the 2nd ode shall be done later.:))
one now,for someone's who's on a airplane,
and another much later in the nite wen my baby be in a club to while the time away waitin.
an ode for the special friend.
you're prob the closest thing to a brother tad a female can possibly to me.
i can still remember how we met juz like it was yest.
we were juz recallin it not so many nites ago.
how i exclaimed to fysh "wad e ...she's a dancer???!?!?!"
fond memories.
thanks fer the times spent toget.
juz chillin n being open wit each other about our problems,
all the emo stuff,
never scoldin each other regardin the foolish stuff we do in the learnin journey called life,
never commentin on the actions we take but juz makin sure we pick each other up n ready ourselves for the next charge.
the advice we dish out to each other always taken into consideration,
for tad mutual respect tad always existed.
the walks to dion's,
the walks to rafiq's,
the sessions with eric,
the time spent in sch tryin to study toget,
the whinin,
the walks arnd sch tryin to get the brain to unfreeze,
thanks for bein the friend who's ALWAYS been there.
i dun tink there's been one time tad i've looked fer you n you weren't there to spare me a lil time.
be it when i was feelin glum juz to talk on the phone,
wen i was lookin for company to go jalan with,
you've always been there.
and i thank you for tad.
you made me feel equal.
more den tad,
you make me feel like i matter.
you make me feel special.
you've been one of the truest if not the truest friends i ever had.
i only wished i had taken a photo wit you before you boarded tad plane tis mornin.
thanks for everythin.
the Lord's blessins upon you over there.
dun forget wad i said about peer pressure.
i wouldnt wan you to suddenly change.
:))
thanks fer it all druggie.
good luck over there.
im pretty sure the place is better den here.:))
call me wen you're back aight??:))
the 2nd ode shall be done later.:))
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
vote now.
vote now.
as a favour to me or wadever.
:))
go here!!!!
support my baby.
make the torture i've gone thru worthwhile.:))
http://www.funkygrad.com/partito/
register n vote aight all??
mucho love spread arnd.:)) thanks thanks.
plsplsplspslspls.
VOTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
as a favour to me or wadever.
:))
go here!!!!
support my baby.
make the torture i've gone thru worthwhile.:))
http://www.funkygrad.com/partito/
register n vote aight all??
mucho love spread arnd.:)) thanks thanks.
plsplsplspslspls.
VOTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
songs to represent
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
It's not warm when she's away
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
And she always gone too long anytime she goes away
Wonder this time where she's gone
Wonder if she's gone to stay
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
And this house just ain't no home
Anytime she goes away
And I know, I know, I know, I knowI know, I know, I know, I knowI know, I know, I know, I knowI know, I know, I know, I knowI know, I know, I know, I knowI know, I know, I know, I knowI know, I know
Hey I'll leave the young thing alone
But ain't no sunshine when she's gone
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
Only darkness everyday
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
And this house just ain't no home
Anytime she goes away
Anytime she goes away
Anytime she goes away
Anytime she goes away
simply expressed.
It's not warm when she's away
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
And she always gone too long anytime she goes away
Wonder this time where she's gone
Wonder if she's gone to stay
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
And this house just ain't no home
Anytime she goes away
And I know, I know, I know, I knowI know, I know, I know, I knowI know, I know, I know, I knowI know, I know, I know, I knowI know, I know, I know, I knowI know, I know, I know, I knowI know, I know
Hey I'll leave the young thing alone
But ain't no sunshine when she's gone
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
Only darkness everyday
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
And this house just ain't no home
Anytime she goes away
Anytime she goes away
Anytime she goes away
Anytime she goes away
simply expressed.
Saturday, August 05, 2006
shoppin,firing,diggin.
i wanna go shoppin.
this urge has been overwhelming me for the past few weeks.
and wen i get my pay i shall be bookin in back immediately.
so WOW!
i dun get any shoppin done.
grrr.
i wanna get a new shirt.
t-shirt actually.
to please a certain sum1 n see how i look in a tighter shirt insteada of my huge baggy ones.
a new pair of levis' 512s.
a new guess belt.(the 60+ one wit a nice buckle!!!!)
a new scent.(either Chanel's Allure Homme Sport or Giorgio Armani Acqua di Gio)
hmmm.
or my good ol FCUK Him.
which is all but used up btw.
crap.
my paycheck for this month's gonna disappear.
sighz.
wad else.
tis week has been hell week.
we came in n left immediately for Op Nutcracker,
which should be renamed Op Ballbuster,
cuz you dig till your balls drop on the ground n bursts.
you dig from evening till dawn n if you're lucky you're done.
if not you juz keep diggin till the instructor says its finally deep enuf.
which can be up to 40 hrs of constant sloggin leavin you butt shacked witout sleep.
and aft you finish,
you gotta make sure your mould of sand by the side disappears and becomes one wit the surroundins,
thus basically leaving you wit invisible holes in the ground.
shacked.
den i got chosen as fightin patrol as well.
so yea.
2 X xiong.
i was section commander for tad whole operation.
GAH.
shack.
3 days of ops,
about 7 hours of sleep.
yea.
next,
section battle drill.
we got back from the op in the late evening,
cleanin stores,countin stuff,slept at bout 2.
woke up at about 6,
den had another day of intensive battle drills.
reached back about 7,
den next had a briefing for live firin,
all the way till about 10,
weapons cleanin till even later,
loadin of stores till even later,
slept late,
den woke up early cuz i was advance party.
went there,
set up tentage,
before we could even rest,
section live firing began.
it was hell week la basically.
i tink i went thru the whole week wit less den 20 hours of sleep.
n it didnt help tad my girl went MIA.
so yea.
plus i lose the dummy claymore for my section.
so yea.
im been dragged down in the dumps.
and i was all alone while it happened.
i dunno.
im actually quite pissed but feel strangly detached.
oh well.friggit.
this urge has been overwhelming me for the past few weeks.
and wen i get my pay i shall be bookin in back immediately.
so WOW!
i dun get any shoppin done.
grrr.
i wanna get a new shirt.
t-shirt actually.
to please a certain sum1 n see how i look in a tighter shirt insteada of my huge baggy ones.
a new pair of levis' 512s.
a new guess belt.(the 60+ one wit a nice buckle!!!!)
a new scent.(either Chanel's Allure Homme Sport or Giorgio Armani Acqua di Gio)
hmmm.
or my good ol FCUK Him.
which is all but used up btw.
crap.
my paycheck for this month's gonna disappear.
sighz.
wad else.
tis week has been hell week.
we came in n left immediately for Op Nutcracker,
which should be renamed Op Ballbuster,
cuz you dig till your balls drop on the ground n bursts.
you dig from evening till dawn n if you're lucky you're done.
if not you juz keep diggin till the instructor says its finally deep enuf.
which can be up to 40 hrs of constant sloggin leavin you butt shacked witout sleep.
and aft you finish,
you gotta make sure your mould of sand by the side disappears and becomes one wit the surroundins,
thus basically leaving you wit invisible holes in the ground.
shacked.
den i got chosen as fightin patrol as well.
so yea.
2 X xiong.
i was section commander for tad whole operation.
GAH.
shack.
3 days of ops,
about 7 hours of sleep.
yea.
next,
section battle drill.
we got back from the op in the late evening,
cleanin stores,countin stuff,slept at bout 2.
woke up at about 6,
den had another day of intensive battle drills.
reached back about 7,
den next had a briefing for live firin,
all the way till about 10,
weapons cleanin till even later,
loadin of stores till even later,
slept late,
den woke up early cuz i was advance party.
went there,
set up tentage,
before we could even rest,
section live firing began.
it was hell week la basically.
i tink i went thru the whole week wit less den 20 hours of sleep.
n it didnt help tad my girl went MIA.
so yea.
plus i lose the dummy claymore for my section.
so yea.
im been dragged down in the dumps.
and i was all alone while it happened.
i dunno.
im actually quite pissed but feel strangly detached.
oh well.friggit.
Sunday, July 30, 2006
hurts.
sometimes the pain juz won't go away.
aft wad jie told me about zn n how he was so fortunate to find my sister so quickly else his "adventure" mite have lasted longer.
im fearin i mite end up the same way.
how bloody annoyin n freaky.
sighz.
remain optimistic.
he looks so normal as well.
wad of me.
alr half crazed as it is.
shat.
aft wad jie told me about zn n how he was so fortunate to find my sister so quickly else his "adventure" mite have lasted longer.
im fearin i mite end up the same way.
how bloody annoyin n freaky.
sighz.
remain optimistic.
he looks so normal as well.
wad of me.
alr half crazed as it is.
shat.
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