thoughts

another uber late sittin in office bloggin entry.rofl.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSH.
eeeittt was about....9 days ago.
HAHHAHA.
awesome awesome for the guys to all join up again man.
and it was good drinkin.lol.

"WHAT HAPPENS IN THE CLUB STAYS IN THE CLUB"
stop postin my half drunk pictures on your msn please.:@

but yes.
tired me + available bottles of chivas makes for ALOT of crap coming from my mouth.
juz imagine witout booze the amount tad alr spews forth.wen i got high,it get loads worse.
hahaha.
BUUUUUTTT i was still sober nuf to play wow wen i came back.
so there.

im tellin you drinking witout moving makes you drunk.
tads why i keptin askin you guys to go dance lo.
stupid booze maniacs.
where got pple drink den dun dance one.
sure get drunk one can.
:@
grr.

niwae.
happy birthday me bro of way too many years.
yours is bro-ship i've always cherished and will always cherish for years to come.
for that matter.
same to all my maris bros.
but niwae its you bdae so i shall not get melacholic.
rofl.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY NIGGA WITH SO MANY DIFF SHADES OF BLACK I DUNNO WHICH IS THE RITE SHADE.
much love pls bro.
here's wishin you get whiter and become like micheal jackson,
get a place in your uni(hopefully wit me and giant HAHAHAHAHAHA.SIM SIM SIM)
hopin you get bulkier and buffed so that wen you get outta army you'll start to sag and all the chicks will stop lustin aft lean sinhalese meat.
and last of all.:)
here's wishin i stay your bro forever cuz im the best thing tad can happen you.:D

hahaha.
1 x buay hiao bai!!.

niwaez.
bros for life man.
*punches heart 2 x

respect for bros and none for hoes.

thus ends the bdae post
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niwae.
ive been mullin about certain stuff and i realised sumthin someone told me a long time ago is rather true.
im am quite the spoilt person.
in the sense that i always get wad i want.
what i see,what i want,i'll juz go out and get it.
regardless of whether or not its an impossible thing,without pause i'll juz "whack"
but all the while stayin aware of who i am and wad im doin.
i recall this phase that i was telling my frens.
"you tell me wad you want, and i'll gif you wad you want"
which is quite ironic cuz i pride myself on being rather much a person who doesnt change much.
jus like within 5 mins of meetin my frens they'll be like "wah &*)(, ben's still the same like last time"
so its kinda like and oxymoron.
but at the same time.
its still rather true.
have you ever felt that you can be soo many diff pple all at one time.
like you entire person is seperated into diff compartments.
i think everyone has a lil portion of emselves which is like that at least.
the comman division being the part of you which is the part the world sees you, and the part you keep private and share only with your life partner.
so back to my point.
how many diff compartments do you have.
i myself havent the faintest clue.
with my guys im def the same person.
lol.
senseless rubbish ftfw.
YOU CAN'T TOUCH THIS ala MC Hammer.
with my church frens im sum1 else,
wit my relatives im sum1 else,
wit my female frens im sum1 else,
wit diff grps and diff persons,
do you ever find you're being a chameloen rapidly changin skin tones?
while at the core you're still the same lil bug juz retraining/flashin out diff aspects of who you are.

so my question/thought of the day is this.
WHO are you really.
the easiest answer to that question is "the core" as mentioned above.
but honestly?
which do you feel comfortable in.
i have days where i love jumpin arnd wit my frens in the club, i have my days where i find myself a quiet corner and think.
i have days where i listen to black bouncy music,yet there are days where i get in touch wit emo rock.
there are days where even christina's songs make sense,days where buble will make you wanna be him.
so who are you really.for that matter who am i?

i like to think that as we go thru life,things you do/see/exp, things tad leave an impact on your life,they help shape the way you'll be.
i like to think that im more certain of who i am then i was 2 years ago.
i was tellin my mum coupla days ago in a car ride.
she was askin me why i'm so "girl crazy"
mind you im not.i was juz purposely pasting my head on the window everytime i see a girl juz to irritate her.
den she started preaching to me about the "1 partner for life.marry your 1st"
den she ask me how many girls ive had.
den i looked at her and told her she was nuts to marry the 1st person.
reasonin thus so.
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as you're together wit a person,
the initail period is 1 x orgas.
everything is smple,you live for her,she live for you kinda shit.
any problem can be overcome.
as time comes along,
more factors come into play.
tiredness makes you revert to a whole diff person.(juz fyi,wen im tired,im either nuts,grumpy,emo but always cranky)
diff situations bring out diff sides of you (possessiveness ftl.)
all this things you will NEVER NOTICE if its just your first.
and what more,
as you go thru this kinda shit,
you'll begin to realise what truly matters to you.
things you've never thought would matter cuz you're "oh so strong, so determined in the face of troubles" all that crap,
when you're down,you realise that you need sumthin.
and its this lil things tad you realise become so impt.
for one,i juz realised how impt it is to have sum1 who knows howta say the right things to bring you outta the slump.
it doesnt hafta be nice words.
sure you mite wanna be pampered and shit,
but sumtimes you too need a splash o h20 in the face to jolt your ass from the isle of self pity and get back on the road.
the ahrd aprt is finidin the one who knows when to do what.
and tads juz one of the qualities im def lookin for now that ive never bothered considering before.
so many itty witty bitty things that you'll only find out about yourself and wad you need aft you've been thru all it.
so aft all of this my mummy juz said"okay.juz dun get too attached"
den i looked at her and told her she was nuts again.lol.
how can you be in a relationship and not be attached pls.-_-
alien concept.
shrugs.
i told her i'll rather truly care for sum1 and hurt den play games.
den she said i was not wise.
den juz juz gave her my "LOOK TO END ALL ARGUEMENTS"
den she "okay wad you want for dinner.
HAHAHAAHAHAHAHA

okie.
niwae.
i dunno wad the point of all this is for.
but yea.
juz random thought spilling forth.
Q_Q is ftw.
if it speaks to you,hurrah and hooray.
if it doesnt, LISTEN TO THE SONG BELOW ITS NAIS.

hahaha on a funnah note, lets end this wit sumthin i found esp quirky.
spewin shit wit a fren den rephased it for blog readin purposes

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thats
one last mental titbit nibble for the day.:)

peace out.

Yours truly,

3SG (SOON TO BE MR OMG I ORD) Benjamin Ng
3DA Bn Ops Spec
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