Saturday, September 22, 2007

every week.
in camp.
there will be a time,
where i listen to my ipod
and outta sudden,
a song hits me and i feel emo.
this songs are <3ed pls.
so yea.
this is the one that made it this week.

dusk and summer by dashboard confessional
She smiled in a big way, the way a girl like that smiles
When the world is hers and she held your eyes
Out in the breezeway down by the shore in the lazy summer
And she pulled you in, and she bit your lip, and she made you hers
She looked deep into you as you lay together quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer

But you've already lost
Wen you only had barely enough to hang on

And she combed your hair, and she kissed your teeth
And she made you better than you'd been before
She told you bad things you wished you could change in the lazy summer
And she told you, laughing down to her core, so she would not cry as she lay in your lap
She said "nobody here can live forever, quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer"

But you've already lost
When you only had barely enough to hang on

She said, "no one is alone the way you are alone"
And you held her looser than you would have if you ever could have known
Some things tie your life together, slender threads and things to treasure
Days like that should last and last and last

But you've already lost
When you only had barely enough of her to hang on

to be honest.
the words that caught me was the chorus itself.

But you've already lost
When you only had barely enough to hang on


all along,i always wonder how cynical can a relationship get always bases itself in how much you're willing to give.
and this song basically sums it up.
the guy is mortally(yes im using it in the correct context L2LIT) in "love" with this girl.and he finds himself bein swept up in this whole euphoric high and then you hear it from the girl's lips a whole differenct concept of how she looks at it.and when it comes down to the crunch of it,ot didnt last and then the whole summary is in those 2 lines of the chorus.

simple but lines with amazing depth.
you're already lost-

lost?
what have you lost to:
yourselves for allowin yourself to be swept away?
to her for lettin her get the better of you?
to love for givin you the false hopes once again and lettin you crash?

when you have barely enuf to hang on.

now this line is juz prophetic in the sense that i'll be usin it myself as a gauge.
wad kinda relationship do you enjoy atm.
the one where you're givin so much to a person that you barely hang on to who you are?
the one that you are so caught up in the doin you're barely handing on to wad is the remnants of your own life before the relationship?
the one that is driving you totally insane you're barely hangin on to your sanity?

and then you realise that this "her" might not actually be a female/male partner in yourlife,
but pretty much everythin that YOU choose to admit into your life and embrace.

and here im gonna be dam cynical and end by saying this.
when the clock ticks on your life' midnight,and you look back.would all this shit matter?

and as usual since my life is a whole example of contradictions i shall conclude with opimism via

but if you are at the closing hours of your life,and you lookin back. and you think to yourself,without all this shit that you choose to go thru last time,would you be half the person you are today?

BUUUUUUT.this is assumin you like the person you see in the photo that they gonna put on your coffin. (im assuming your relatives will NOT entertain your request to look in the mirror cuz they prob think you're going starkin raving mad)

if you dun like the photo,means you died not at peace with yourself and its juz too dam sad you should've done more to live with less regrets now you dying and its too late.




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