afterthoughts.

tis been quite a while since i last sat down like this to juz reorder my thoughts.

and i guess its a lil overdue.

so much has happened in the past few months i guess its juz been a rush for me.

school starts in 2 weeks time and im faced with a step up or fuck off test of my ability to burn the candle at 3 ends to get everything i want in my idealistic nature.
something tells me i'll rather burn myself out before even admitting defeat in even 1 aspect, but i guess tads still to be said,despite all bravado, its gonna be fuckin hard and i juz hafta hunker down and find some hidden strength.2 years aint tad long isit?ns passed in the same amount of time.

fish steps onto tekong in 2 months time.and the shitty thing is that since he's gonna be confined for 14 days,tad means for the 1st time in about 5?6? years, i'll be celebrating my bdae without one of the closest persons in my life.a typical army term comes to mind and it screams."lan lan"

work's been bouncing along decently i guess.whilst i havent been really tested yet,im still learning the ropes and doing my best imitation of a wooden pole at all meetings,sucking in as much as possible.and listening to my big boss today, i juz have this to say.

studies is about dealing with numbers. real life business is about dealing with pple.

and hmm.
i dun know if you guys listen to radio in the mornings,
but i have this morning routine which is aft i log into my computer,i turn on my laptop to the radio.
and i cant remember if it was this morning or yest,
but they were asking if love was an investment.
and asking pple to comment on it.

now me being the boring old fart tad i am, listened and laffed at pples opinions,
cuz as usual,the ego within has the "PERFECT" answer.

and in my "humble" opinion,

any rship is an investment.

and investment of the things tad once given cannot be regained.

to wad things am i speaking about?

1stly:
the most vaulable commodity given to all men.everyone has an equal share,everyone cant change its flow and ebb. and its simply spelled, time. time with which you can be doing something else,time with thich you mite wanna invest elsewhere,but choose to invest in your only one.
2ndly:
emotions.i believe that everyone has this emo vessel within em.and yes while it refills and is technically never truly empty,i choose to believe tad everytime you're giving of yourself into a rship,its a unique part of yourself tad you can NEVER be able to replicate again.you'll always have some to give.this vessel should technically never be empty, but your willingness to dip into might be tested sometimes.and i believe its from here tad your commitment to the rship begins.and similarly(sp), this investment tad you make goes into tad persons emo vessel,which means in the ideal rship,you're constantly fillin each others cup.at least i think so.

/raise eyebrows.


okie i shall stop emoing and go play game for a while before i sleep.
its been a long long day.