goddammit.

was there more i could've done.
goddammit.
bloody de jevu.
i hate myself.

dun you hate it wen your own insecurities constantly rob you.
goddammit.

entrance

i have entered the world of self hate,self despair,hurt n pain.
self despise too.
hate fer oneself has never been this strong.
maybe its only this strong only cuz it hasta match the hurt i feel so i cant feel it.
i dunno.
i hate it as well.
i really really regret my actions.
why the fuk did all this happen.
cuz ben had to be such a smartass.
wonderful.
its amazing aft everythins done,
a lil reciprocation's still not in order.
fer nothin less den giving sumthin else tad offers better benefits a chance.
and fer makin me happy.
juz making me happy.
n tad's not enuf.
sighz.
i hate myself.
i hate the world.
i hate God fer dealin me this hand of cards to deal wit.
cuz im not prepared to do so.
i hate myself.
and if you've got nuttin to say./
you better not fukin tag on my board regardin tis entry cuz i swear i've fukin tear you to ribbons.
dun push me.
im done.

how can love be so painful.
wen i only asked fer one thing once.

things in life you regret.

are there things in ya life upon reflection,
you find yaself wishin ya haf never done.
have you been so sorry,
but yet the word sorry dun cut it.
i've been there.
i've done tad.
certain unmentionable things,
and certain mentionable.
but upon reflection.

pls accept my apologies.

ponder.

hmm.
well.
im injured!!!:)
heh.
cuz i was runin fer the bus yest,
den my rite food slipped on the step n slid all the way along its path,
twistin itself n scrapin my left knee againt the asphalt yest,
leavin "blood n skin n dna" on the ground there.
yes.
thus my highly immobile state wit my rite ankle elevated and my left knee flexed.
cuz if it aint flexed,
wen i flex it,
all the dried blood'll crack n it'll bleed again.

its been a long time since i pondered.
i really wonder wad's goin on in my life.
at least spiritually.
my mummy's been insistin tad i've a callin in the teachin min.
so did sista becky from way back.
another big sign tad my mummy took it as confirmation to the naggin she's been
giving me's tad i got my 1st relief teachin job today.
and i couldnt go cuz im limpin.
kinda seems funky eh?
mummy says its the devil at work and i should go into teachin fer real.
but then again.
bein a teacher's been my main ambition since dunno when pls.
kinda confusin in its entity.
shrugs
who knows.
who can tell.

i was juz readin a fren on mine's blog.
n i was kinda happy tad yea.
ina sense,
its muz prob her own ponderations,
but there was a time where wad she wrote was sumthin mentioned during our last conver.
hmmm.
i dunno.
i juz tot it was noteworthy.
i dun even know if she reads my blog,
but to her "tink it thru".
before its too late.

im not really ina ponderin mood i tink.
im kinda juz ramblin.
its kinda hard to tink wen your leg's throbbin n you can feel ya knee blood tryin to goo up to form a protective layer over the wound so it wunt get infected.

niwaez.
i shall tell ya'll about my driving exp!!:))
i've been pretty far along in my drivin alr.
im on the main road and i went up to 70kmh in gear 4.
:))
its really quite a rush but yet its highly scary as you know outta sudden,
you haf the responsibility of not only ya vehicle,
but not to knock down those stupid jaywalkers who wait at the side of the road.
i.e-me.
i have never in my WHOLE life felt to terrified as wen i was goin at 60 and
this stupid boy came barrelin down this hill at the roadside like he was goin to cross.
i would've emergenc braked if not fer my instructor who said "go."
one word but yea.
it turned out to be rite cuz he stopped RITE AT THE KERB.
i was mutterin under my breath,
my knuckles were clenched tight on the wheel till the instructor told me to relax.
:@:@:@:@:@:@

funky.
the instructors i realised,
have absolutely no qualms about tellin you to do new things about 1 sec before you hafta do it.
example:instructor'll bold.
i.e-i've never made a turn before,
turn left at 17.
huh!?(goes past 17)
turn left at 18!
huh!!!(brakes,nearly stalls,swing the wheel madly,go into the lane,correct)
i've hever turned before.
tad's why muz start lo.

n i'll be like %#^$@$%&#$^#@

then came the best thing.
rite turns.
man.
wen you're still havin trouble wit not stallin,
and ya mind's filled wit terrifyin images of ya car stallin in traffic's way,
he still didnt gif none warning.
man.
:@
i was in cold sweat la.

its highly challengin.
and its really sumthin teachin me the severity of driving n all.
funky stuff.
but wenever i have lesson,
NO BLOODY JAYWALKIN DAMMIT.
thanks.mucho gracias.
:))

i GOT A COM.:)

i got a com i got a com i got a com.
teeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

ponderations.

self-remonstrations.
the bittersweet taste of decisions in ya life.
are there decisions you made tad made you happier n whole fer em but yet those decisions are not witout their own fallacies.
highly amusing.
and thee decisions if you ever had to make em again.
you'll still make em the same way n embrace everythin again.
i dunno if its a sign o immaturity,
o be a sign of it inverse tad i actually reflect on my decisions.
shrugs.
maybe it juz be in matters o the heart.
i havent the faintest clue or the want to go tink it thru.
my being's exhuasted.
i slept at bout 2 plus last nite.
she's back at last.
:))
thanks to all tad kept me company.
fysh,druggie,les,jeremy n gang.
either knowingly or unknowingly.
thanks.

hmmm.
yes.
where was i.
i was half ina catonic state at nite wen a bloody truck *RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr*
passed by house.
and bein the lite sleeper tad i am,
i woke up.
snorted,
tried to roll back to sleep but to no avail.
yes.
imma lite sleeper.
:(
plus it takes me dam long to get to bed lest im like totally halfway down the pipe tad kind.
so niwae,
accordin to history,
prob dozed back to sleep by about 6 plus..
den yea.
woke at 725.
to go.....FISHIN
UH!
good stuff.
i swear its dam fun if you catch.
if not its butt boring.
kekek.
well.
we didnt,
but i nearly did.
too rusty alr la.
been too long since i last casted a line.
but it was enjoyable,
the weather was awesome.
breezy,
cold.
sweet weather to be in a bed.
but yup.
enjoyed the time wit my parents.

aft,
we went to tampineeeeeeeeeess mall.
wewent to do my phone stuff at starhub store,
which took dam long fer sum unearthly reason.
basically.
to get my phone,
we dallied there almuz 2 hours.
go figure bout the svc.
juz to pay took twenty mins.
highyl annoyin.
den we went to this dim sum place.
man.
i swear their xiao long bao can put crytal jade outta business.
no shat.
its tad good.
like you use POINTED CHOPSTICKS mind you,
pick it up close to the top,
lift it off the cloth layer,
jiggle it,
the skin doesnt break cuza te weight of the soup/gravy inside.
and wen you put it in ya mouth it kinda doesnt feel like anithin.
GOOD SHAT.
:))
bout 9 bucks fer 10 i tink.


yup.
den came home.
exhausted,
spent,
but happy.
sated in the sense of family love,
but still yearnin fer more.
im greedy.
wad can i say.
and therein lies the source of my self remonstrations.

oh wellz.
lalalalal.
i shall go take dinner now.
tata alls.

o yea.
fer those interested.
i got a blue razr.
yup.
blue.
wad else.
:))
i try not to fit in.*grinz*

well.
the 4 days are gone.
lemme recount their passin.
everynite's been pretty awful.
wen sumthin's been goin on long fer so long(prob bout 1 mnth or more),
and it suddenly stops,
makes things kinda diff to live with.
hmmm.
the 1st nite was horrific,
i ended callin random pple.
yea.
pissed off a few of em too.
sigh.
hmm.
in the end,
talked to druggie till bout 4 i tink.
before i got so seh i HADTA sleep.

den next day,
went out wit druggie fer a drink,
went to suntec n basically chatted bout the same things we were talkin bout the nite before.
diff decisions we make in our lives,
the kinda probs we face,
and yea.
all tad kinda shat.
hmmm.
den saw grace.
interestinly nuf,
she works durin school.

wad else.
nuttin much.
druggie hadta leave early,
we walked arnd a while,
den left.
i came home,
slept.
at least tried too.
fitful sleep doesnt even begin to cover it.
oh wellz.
but exhaustion took me sooner.
prob drifted off at bout 3.

hmmm.
den woke up on sunday fulla anticipation fer soccer.
but the Lord had other plans and yea.
it got cancelled cuza rain.
in the end,
went to dota.
i swear i suck at tad stupid game.
but yea.
doesnt matter.
as of today,
y wow has come back to life.
lvled once toda.
n yhea.
once again.
ive got new hopes.
mumy says com mite be in on sat.
:)))))))))
kekekeke
goot shat.
if its in,
den yea.
i can stop worry bout lanshop costs n play decent wow.:))

den yea.
today was easier.
i went fer driving in the morn,
went ll wit fysh to wow n other stupid games,
den went wit him n druggie to pjc fer the campfire.
couldnt find any half decent lookin chicks.
thus another dismal turnout fer this yr's crop of j1 which is nuttin new niwae.
teh looks department since the yr before mine started droppin.
*shrugs*
nuttin new i guess.

den walked out wit fysh to eat,
den yup.
she came back.
and thus passed 4 days witout event.

and btw.
:))
i go out onto the main road on weds prob.
so drivers,
BE ON YA GUARD.
im dam scared of stallin in tad situation.
i swear i'll juz cry.
:(
but niwae,
the instructor tells mi im doin really fine so yup.
shall take heart.
no more stallin today.
the car was co operative.:))

niwaez.
today lesson was an overachiever's lesson.
i tink i did 2 lessons worth of subjects in today's lesson la.
:)) so yup.

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tis was all i could recover.
i like typed a dam long one bt yea..
forget it.
im not gonna type it all over again.
grrr.

dadadumthumpthump

hmmm.
wogay.
wad else is new.
i hate gettin conned wen lookin fer a serious job.
its annoyin!!!
went fer 3 interviews today n 2 of em were from the same company juz different floors.
annoyin.
oh wellz.
shall pray fer a proper job soon.
i intend to go back to indo on tues if a cant find a proper one over the weekend.
so wad if its 5.5 n only bounces to 6.5aft a while.
its a job i guess.
im sicka wastin away at home.
i figure i get myself a job,
go buy myself a pair of black converse shoes,
chill out n use my silver pen to make it "me" n yea.
juz go work n learn the bar if i can at the same time.
:))
househ.

tml got appreciation svc.
oh shat.
wad's the time.
wait.
i got check.
great.
the letter doesnt include a time.
nvm.
shall juz bounce in the car aft my driving lesson i guess.
:))

speakin of which.
i shall begin driving lessons tml.
:))
my main aim by tml is to master it fast n make it past the 3rd gear module.
:))
i dun have my pdl yet,
and if im not wrong,
tad's bout the highest ya can go witout a pdl.
so yup.
:))
i wanna attain tad by tml.
:))
den hail me 1337.
scarli i come out wit only a one tick.
:(
lol.
i laf myself stupid la.
:))
shiftin to 3rd gear's the 4th tick.
:))
yea.
lolol.
im bored.
shall go find sumthin to do.

wonderin.again.

hmmm.
sumtimes in life you wonder if there's really sumthin worth doin.
i get really muddled so much of the time.
if God's given us the victory,
wad's left to prove.
if there's nuttin left to prove to the world,
i would juz throw away all my responsibilities n go do teachin of God's word full time.
i swear.
but den again,
can i be absolutely sure im not shrikin my responsibilities.
funny funny thoughts.
oh wellz.
one muz be responsible.
n all.
shrugs.
i applied fer jobs at indochine n harry's bar.
indo's 5.5 but can be raised to 6.5.
i dunno bout harry's.
they're requirin bartenders which i wanna learn howta become,
but yet i dun haf skill so its iffy.
shrugs.
shall go call em back tml n see if i really stand a chance.
lalalala.

if sumthin is as iffy as love is.
if the person's behavior confuddles you,
if you know inside tad she really seems to be the one fer you,
would you still wanna wait despite all the cold shoulders?
*ponders*
and yea.
its juz ponderin.
dun read too much into it.
i always get a whole lotta shat everytime i pnder here so i shall cma here.:)) yay.

niwae
daddy got a rokr e1.
its got a phone.
i took tis pic wit it.
its my xmas prezzie.

on fire

Tell you where you need to go
Tell you who you need to be
Tell you what you need to know
Tell you when you'll need to leave

But everything inside you knows
Says more than what you've heard
So much more than empty conversations
Filled with empty words

Chorus:
And you're on fire
When He's near you
You're on fire
When He speaks
You're on fire
Burning at these mysteries

Give me one more time around
Give me one more chance to see
Give me everything You are
Give me one more chance to be... (near You)

Cause everything inside looks like
Everything I hate
You are the hope I have for change
You are the only chance I'll take

Chorus:
When I'm on fire
When You're near me
I'm on fire
When You speak
And I'm on fire
Burning at these mysteries
these mysteries...

I'm standing on the edge of me (x3)
I'm standing on the edge

Chorus:
And I'm on fire
When You're near me
I'm on fireWhen You speak
(Yea) I'm on fire
Burning at these mysteries...

a painfuly beautiful song fer all.
all manners of interpretation.
go find one tad speaks to you.
go download it,
go buy the album,
its from switchfoot.:))

crossing over

hmmm.
has everyone more or less decided on a new yr's resolution?
i havent.:))
hahahaha.
i swear makin em's like suicidal cuz you're more or less prone to fail unless its the Lord's will.
so let Him decide ya new yr's resolution.
cuz yea.
basically.
you aint gonna decide nuddink in ya life.
:))
lalala.
im sittin here wit a feelin of bein whole within me.
sum things hafta be made official.
and wen they are,
you feel whole.
lalalala.
bored stiffless.
shall go look fer games to play.
:)

passed.

i passed my basic theory.:))
lalalal.:)
praise the Lord.
:)

i need new songs fer my ipod.

anyone wit current pop songs n r&b n hip hop songs
willin to like loan me about an hour worth of ya computer's time
to get new songs in my pod??:)
pity the ipod owner wit no com.:(

yea!!:)

i finally got the pics up.
sumhow.:))
i hope it works.
its in e post below this one i tink.
go sign the guestbook n laf at me.:))
i tink i look dam corny.
buahahaha.:))

arhz.
the pleasure of having time to oneself.
went out in the morn to teach,
den came home,
bought back those old school loaves of bread??
fer mummy n ern.
ya know know old school dam fat ones before baguettes came about in singapore??
where it comes from old uncles tad cycle arnd n have this white wooden boxes in teh back wit bread kaya.
:))
yup.
den made it wit kaya fer ern mummy n i den we left to go town..
i went to town's library.
den mummy went to back.
den triedta look fer my book but couldnt find it.
but i found it under CLL.
den i didnt know wad tad stood fer??
so i hadta go ask the librarian ower.
:))
noob.
den learnt tad its juz the new national library.
its called central loanin library or sumtime.
and my mummy fer sum reason,
(i believe its called love)
fetched me over there to go book huntin.
which is why rite now,
i have 6 books in my room n lotsa time to read em.
at least till tml nite before i start muggin like hell fer my theory test on thurs mornin.:))

pray tad i pass.
i'll be dam angsty if i dun pass.
:@:@:@@:@:@:
they dun allow you to book multiple tests.
so if i fail i hafta do the ruddy evals again.
:@:@:@:@:@:@
kaoz.

hmmm.
did i mention i love teachin?
i tink i did.
hahaha.
:))
niwaez.
its a hell lot harder den it looks.
but meanwhile,
i shall spend time on myself.
i wanna go learn wakeboardin.
anyone wanna come wit me??
i tink its bout 400 bucks non includin the bruised ass.
tad i believe ya gotta bring yaself.
hmm.
yup.
tag mi if anione's interested.
:))

lalal.
wad else.
i wanna go read.

thanks fer the gifts i recieved.:))
to everyone who gave me one,
its appreciated.
:))

this should get ya'll to my prom pics.

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2116489301&code=19913358&mode=invite&DCMP=isc-email-AlbumInvite


its in her name cuz its her cam.:))

merry christmas to one n all.

this christmas.
lets juz all take one second,
roll ya head back,
stretch ya neck.
n join me ina lil thanksgiving.
this is my list.
if ya feel me,
juz say "amen", "yea man", "uh huh,tad's my thanks as well"

firstly.
lets thank God fer sendin his Son fer us.
witout whom we would not exist on this torrid plane of existence manifested wit temptation,pressure,deceit,hate,every negative vibe tad exists.
if he didnt come,
we would be the ashes tad we came from.
thank Him fer our existence.
im pretty sure tad despite it bein sad at times,
we did haf moments we enjoyed.

secondly,
lets thank Jesus Christ fer dyin fer us n givin us multiple shots at life.
(at tis point in time,i would juz liketa say tad everythin would be thankin
God cuz basically He be the power tad be.so yup.
you can thank wadever gods you believe in.but i'll recommend mine.:) )
witout his grace n mercy,
you really tink you would've got away wit the rubbish you did tis yr?
all the jaywalkin,lookin at answers,
slackin,lyin to frens,parents,family,lovers,
you better thank Him fer lettin ya vague shades of lies pass thru.
if you dun feel like it,
tink of the shat you'll be in if it all came to light.
im pretty sure it'll change ya mind n heart ina hurry.

Thank Him fer His blood tad washed away our sins.
if not,
n if santa really existed,
it'll be a really really easy life fer him.
can you imagine.
the whole santa hood chillin all yr long.(punpun.get it?chillin in the north pole,
okie,i shall shut up.:) )
all the elves'll have nuttin t do all yr long n juz kick back their heels n relax.
if you actually got a present fer xmas,
you better thank Him rite the hell now lest you get coal in ya stockin next yr.

thank God fer family.
the never diminishin source of as pure as one can get to agape love in this tragic world.
the ones who become wad i term the "silent supporters" as i am to a select few.
who despite the distance,
the lack of talk time,
you know these pple'll will always be there to watch ya back.
thank God fer ya family.
den go Thank Ya Family.
please.
be human n speak wit ya heart.
thank em.

to those like me who made it past the As tis yr.
thank the Lord fer seein us thru tad awful time.
fer deliverin us from late nites of last min study n bringin us about face once it ended.
all the A level grads pls say an amen.
ya pple know how bad it felt.
i neednt say more.

to those who found love,lost love,retained love,n got heartbroken,
thank the Lord of memories n lessons you'll remember all of ya life,
the mistakes ya made,
the mistakes you found yaself absolved all guilt of,
the bitter aftertaste tad left a heartache within you.
raise a hand of salute to yor memories n experiences.
and thank the One above who made em all appear in ya life.

thank the Lord for frens.
the clowns you hang out wit,
in school,at work,at play,the pple tad brighten up ya life wit their stupid jokes,
really horrible lame ones,
the ones tad sumtime do sweet lil things tad you know they hadta make an effort to make you haf tad one smile.
the ones tad also are there to take ya bullshat n angsty rants(if you're anithin like me tad is),
the ones who are there to support you as far as they're willin to.
thanks fysh,alv,crys,wicker,dud,aaron,tim,joey,lester,sarah,qi,maise,
g,jam,druggie,swong,daryl,john,hafiz,nerdy,deb,fauzie,adi,
khai,shunting,rovin,keat,maine,wen,
serene(the one i learnt to be a silent supporter from,i still remember
our 1st conversation.:) the time i came clean n ya did too.:) ),van,
all of you,as well as those i sumhow cant recall rite now cuza the glare of te stupid com,
from the ones tad brought me joy thru hockey,thru soccer,thru wow,thru movies,thru smiles,thru ministry,thru being a real bro or a real sista,
to everyone of you's who's made my life this yr sumthin tad i can look back n smile at,
thanks.:))
here's a hug fer alla ya'll. *hugs*

lastly,
since im runnin outta ideas cuz the above are all broad strokes,
and they encompass basically everythin dependin on how one interprets it,
i HAFTA make sure you pple get the last one.
thus imma bold it.

thank God fer yaself.
i cannot even begin to express the love tad one should haf fer oneself but yet i
see alot of my closest pple not having within em.
love yaself pple.
from there,
the respect,
the poise,
everythin tad you wan to project to the world will naturally stymmie forth.
love thyself n the world will become ya apple.
if ya have God on ya side n if it be His will tad it becomes ya apple.
it will be.
love yaself.
stop doin things tad break ya apart inside,
stop wastin ya life,
stop wit the facades n be honest wit how you really feel,
stop all the backslidin n behave ina manner tad befits ya faith,
prioritise,
make the things tad benefit you line up 1st,
make it a priority to return the love of those tad love you.
make sure you dun lose the things you treasure by makin em feel cherished,
stop botherin bout the way the world tinks fer juz tis instant,
and juz love yaself.
make it a new year's resolution.
do sumthin you know will benefit you.
as in deep within n not the image tad you project to the world.
yes pls.

thank God fer yaself,n love yaself.


tad concludes my thanksgivin.
i hope ya at least agreed to at least 2 of em.
lest i tink you're really one hella an ungrateful pig n ya should go back up n
re read everythin again.
:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:

and agree to at least 2 you lil ingrate.
GRRRRR.

niwaez.
HEY ALL WHO WISHED ME MERRY XMAS!!!!
HAPPY HAPPY MERRY MERRIST CHRISTMASS TO YA'LLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!
sorry if i didnt reply,
my sms's limit was learnin juz how high the sky goes till it hits the roof so i was tryin to
bring it back down to earth.

im officially outta work.
i really need more students.
n i need my m1 contact to come thru.
anione know any part time job tad goes fer $7 n more per hour tad hires 2??
hopefully not formal attire pls.
but best of all.
pls get me students.
i wanna teach!!!!!
:):))
i know i can do it.
hahahaha.
:))

roxor.
i've got bittersweet emotions left within.
wonder if words'll make emselves clear.
but yet.
i dun wanna focus on the bitter yet.
it'll come in its time.
meanwhile.
lets let me savour the sweetness or wad's left of it.
:))
nites all.
see ya'll soon.

fitin ghosts.

things are goin fine.
im sick of fightin ghosts.
really tired wit all this shat.
niwaez.
its christmas season soon.
bein poor sucks.
i've been lookin at stuff n i see stuf i wanna buy fer my fam but im scrapin the bottom of the barrel now.
thus.
shoppin sucks.
i really cant be bothered to blog rite now.
im dam angsty.
so yup.
i shall juz stop here.
cuz im under specific instructions to never blog wenever im angry as i mite offend sensibilities of pple who read my blog n aft tad go tell me sista tad ive got issues.
and despite my repeated appeals fer em to talk to me,
still go talk to my sista.
which i still cant understand cuz if i matter nuf fer you to actually make you wanna say sumthin,
you guy would rather talk to my sista despite me openin myself up to your opinion.
why?
you afraid i'll see thru the faint veneer of concern.
i swear i can count the no of pple tad actually care nuf to come talk to me in ONE hand.
n the saddest part is tad the majority aint even christian.
but the pple tad talk to my sista about me?
the odds swing the other way.
i really dunno wad to say.
maybe im juz angstin again.
but you know wad.
it dun change the fact tad its true.
i bet imma get scolded by my sista again but i really cant be bothered.
i make my testimony by bein honest n forthright to the world.
i put everythin i feel here n bare myself.
you pple can come tell me exactly wad you feel but you dun.
so dun come criticize me.
phoneys.

im 2nd in overall sales fer the month despite bein part time.
n i only lost to alpha bitch who constantly sends me to the storeroom to do stock.
gah.
i really cant be bothered to vent anithin here la.
screw it.
i hate fightin ghosts.

how do you get rid of sumthin tad doesnt exist except in an enthreal form?
you cant.
its times lke tad i really dun wanna bother.
sum fites you can win,
sum you cant.
so yea.
i dun fite battles tad are over before they begin.
so yup.
im done.
at least fer tad particular battlefield.
im gone.

3 days gone.boastin time.

hmmm.
lalalala.
i dun really haf much to blog about.
im juz here to boast.
:))
today sold 2.5,
the day before 1.6,
the day day before.
4.02k
kekeke.hail me teh 1337.:)

passed.

i finally passed my ruddy BTE.
which fer the uninitiated,
means basic theory evaluation.
the system goes like this at my place.
ya gotta attend the 2 mandatory lessons,
take the evaluation,
pass the eval,
BEFORE ya can apply fer the test.
the last 3 times i failed by one question.
this time aft studyin a hell lot more.
i only got 1 question wrong.
KEKE!
ogay.
the proper test is on the 29 at 9 in the mornin where im havin an off day.
i intend to mug like hell.
those pple who've passed and possess a lil book called "250 questions to passin basic theory"
or sum kinda tad name,
pls lend mi.
i really REALLY wish to make it so if n should i go out aft tad,
i'll have a smile on my face cuz i have tis lil document termed "PDL"
in my wallet.
which will allow me to go to the practical sessions which i swear by hook or by crook i shall fly my way thru cuz they're too dammed expensive.
i intend to get my stupid license asap!!!!

wogay.
im gettin mass nudged so i cant really do anithin.
cuz the com goes *brrrrrr* about every 20 seconds.
stupid clowns.
niwaez.

LOOKIN FER STUDENTS IN PRI N SEC FER MYSELF.
BASICALLY ENG MATH SCI FER PRI,
ENG N SCI FER SEC.
RATES DUN MATTER,
JUZ GET IN TOUCH WIT ME.
ASK YA AUNTIES FER YA COUSINS.
YA GET THE PICTURE.

ALSO,
FER JC,
PHY N MATH STUDENTS.
NO I SURE AS HELL AINT TEACHIN.
IM HELPIN MY TEACHERS LOOK FER STUDENTS.
PHY-GAY DEAN'S LIST OVER ACHIEVER,
MATH-PROB THE MUZ PATIENT N EFFECTIVE DUDE EVER.

MSG ME!!!!PLEASE.
:))

testimonial,perhaps love,highway code 101.

hmmm.
fer sum unGodly reason,
our testimonial match begun at 9 today.
which is weird fer the reason tad ITS BLOOOOOOOOOODY EARLY.
niwaez.
me bein teh bagus player tad i am,
decided to go early to do strokes first to make sure i dun foul up during the game.

(sidenote:reason why i've n i'll be usin bagus really really frequently now is cuz it bodes well should a customer say it.reason?cuz he/she's from indo,carries a huge wad of cash n goes arnd bagus-ing a coupla times n i can sell bout 700 bucks wortha leather shat.keke.so to bring in the routine,i shall use the word more.:))

back to main story,
so yup,
i went there really early,
woke my ass up bout 6:30,
showered,made breakfast den i left the house wit my mummy drearily openin her eyes n like "where you goin?eat alr?drink alr?"
to which i answered 'HOCKEY,yes,yes."
den yup,
walked my sleepin ass n legs outta the house up teh hill to the bus stop,
next
fell asleep on the bus,
went about 2 stops too far,
but thank God it was still on 199's route.
got off really quickly laffin at myself,
crossed the road n waited fer 199.
den happily d comes along n msges me wen he's supposed to be like 10 mins away "wad bus do i take from boon lay???" all innocently.
den i was like close to cursing the sky blue.
but niwaez,
i went there,
sat there to take my time to wake up,
went to the toilet to change,shat,eat,
den did 2 laps to warmup,
stretched,
hit a whole loada balls,
freaked out at my loss of form,
started doin strokes for real,makin sure i actually hit sumthin.
den d announces his arrival by laffin at me wen i take a huge swing n miss.:@
ass.
den next thing,
wen he gets ready,
i get my own back by laffin incredibly loud cuz his swing's bigger den mine.
and he misses too.
lawls.
den we juz started laffin stupidly at each others misses.
totally no form at all.
den we juz kep hittin n hittin n stoppin n stoppin,
den aft tad,
ben yang n who i mistook fer veron comes up.
den wen she comes closer den i see its qq.
:)
thanks fer comin to the match.:)
fer sum reason,
she felt like comin to ntu to watch me play a match n 9 oclock at about 830,
which is btw as west as one can get from any point in singapore wen she stays in thompson.
so niwae,
passed her breakfast,
n den headed back out to the pitch to laf at the irony of us being so hardworkin but yet so lousy.
from star striker n star defender to nuttin in 6 months.
man.
den yup,
the rest arrived in due time n the game started.
me n d were prob a lil shaky by our loss of touch but didnt really care,
we were here fer fun niwaez.:)
niweaz,
shall not bore everyone wit the intricate lil details,
but yup.
i scored 2 goals,
both were pressin the offense n capitalising on mistakes made,
and i should've had one more but it came off the post n adi swept home the rebound.
so yup.
total score is 3-1 wit arshad bringin in the consolation fer the j1s.
i expected a better fite honestly.
i guess the loss of shunting's really affectin em.
hope they pick emselves up in time fer season.
if not it'll be a terrible waste.
oh wells.

next,
i left pretty quickly aft the match to go watch a movie.
basically we juz wanted to go a place where i could rest my ass witout so many eyes on us,
so we went n caught whichever movie was showin the soonest.
den yup.
had a pretty sweet movie i guess.
the show sucked but yea.
the company was fine.:)

den yea,
time to hit the books.
highway code 101.
:@:@:@:@:@@:@:@:@:@:@:@@:
i swear if i fail one more bloody time imma punch thru the touchscreen.
i studied n i failed.
by 1 more question.
in case ya'll dunno,
it happened the same time the PAST 2 TIMES.
always by one question.
if it was back in like olden days,
its 50 questions,
max of 5 wrong,
now its 70 ques,
max of 7 wrong.
i got 6,6 and 8 respectively.
:@:@:@:@@:@:@:@:@:@@:@:
pissed does not even begin to describe my angst.
:@:@:@:@
niwaez.
i tink imma go rush do it tml.
shall go book lesson now.

lalalalalalala.
okie dokie.
im done.
:)