twinkle,twinkle fadin star,your light seems so faint from afar.

after a really long time,i finally get to use the com again.gah pls.
wanted to use it alst nite but didnt haf time.
sighz.

twinkle twinkle fadin star,
your light seems so faint from afar,
blinding radiance slowly fades,
till a speck's all tad's seen of your face,
twinkle twinkle fadin star,
missed,will ya glow be from afar.

sighz.
its been a crappy week.
:(
sighz.
i hope tml's hockey match will make up a long way fer it.
sighz.
i really wish sumthin major would come into my life n take the place of exams.
sumthin tad'll make mi smile tad radiant smile of pure joy i used to wen life was soo much easier,
wen last min study before the O's still got you an A grade,
where school was a place where you went to to sleep your mornin n aft lessons away,
and only woke up to play bball during recess and lunch breaks.
where bros you knew you could rely on surrounded you and yelled encouragement at you.
where the teachers all knew your face n smiled at you everytimes you crossed their path,
where you had the self confidence to swagger arnd the school compound like you owned it.

i really hate bein a responsible person.
i hate havin to make the rite decisions all the time.
i hate having to study cuz i dun wanna let the pple who believe in mi down.
i hate havin to study cuz its the right thing to do.
but yet if i dun let these really wrong things motivate mi to study.
i wouldnt stuy at all.
ya'll mite all shout"bro its time to get a new perspective,you're workin fer yaself man!"
but to mi it doesnt really matter.
i know.
im a short sighted dim witted clown who cant see the big picture.
so bite mi.

im juz gettin really tired of it all.
every mornin i dread having to drag my lazy ass outta bed,
movin it to school,
plonkin it down in hard plastic chairs in uncomfortable hot classrooms,
doin the RIGHT thing.
i hate it all.
but still,i gotta do it.

sigh.
i really miss chillin out.
i really do.
i need sum1 who can minister to my heart and soul.
i've got God fer my soul,
where's the person who can minister deep into my heart n heal the ragged edges and mutiple hairline cracks tad run wild across it.
i want my ONE Lord.
show mi who it is,
allow mi to be content with who she is,
let mi love her fer who she is.
i HATE having to tink about "is she the right girl for mi,
is she God's choosen one fer mi.
juz dump her uncerimoniously in fronta me,
tell mi to shut up,
love her,
be a good and loyal husband and tad;'s it.
i wanna haf a clear path in life tad i know pleases you.

i dun wanna afta wonder about my actions being right of wrong,
pleasin to You or not,
i dun wnana hafta debate if studyin is thing tad'll please You,
and if i do it wit a reluctant heart its not true worship,
but yet in my act of doin it its an act of submission,
so thus it'l please you wit a ratio of two:1.
tad's juz ridiculous.
and highyl perplexin.
sighz.
i really wish things were diff..

i wan my special sum1.
whether is my special someone back(referrin to my sole ex),
of whether is the next person tad God's gonna place in my life fer mi to learn wad's the true meanin of love.
i wan tad person now,
and i wan her to like mi too.
tad makes things a hell lot easier on my end.
aight Lord?
in Jesus's name i pray.Amen.


gah.
sighz.
i hope tad doesnt count as blasphemy.
oh wells.
imma go sleep.
tuiton,
den hockey beckons.
YAY!.:)
time to dust of my wife(mt beautiful tk cruise compo stick) and get ready to run again.:))

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?

You Are 19 Years Old

19 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

YAy.im my age.woohoo.
PFFT