maybe,maybe,never.

sighz.
i relaly am quite demoralised.:(
i really did study during the june hols.
and yet.
the results dun seem to be comin forth.
i was aimin fer stragith Os.
kinda like a steppin stone so i can like work my way up to like Cs fer prelims and like Bs and As by the A's.
but yet.
i see improvement.
but yet.
its not enuf.
not nuf fer mi,sure as hell not enuf for my parents.
i remember distinctly tellin my fren tad there's nutin to prove to pple.
tad she shouldnt like start bawlin juz cuz she cant meet the expectations tad pple set fer her.
and the expectations tad she sets fer herself.
and yet.
now imma victim of tad very same curse.
:(
sighz.
wad have i gotten back.
i missed my chem O by bout 2 %.
i passed my physics mcq.
everythin else's hasnt been returned yet.
sighz.
it really sucks pls.
granted,i did haf times during the hols where i totally gave up fer like a coupla hours,but eventually i came back to force myself to study thanks to the driving force of purpose driven life.
sighz.
but yet.
and O fer chem isnt tad hard to achieve pls.:(
and i missed it by like 3 marks.
like how much inustice is there la.
i minused a total of 5 marks fer not writin state symbols,
3 marks fer decimal places,
bout 6 marks where i had the right answer and everythin but i didnt get any marks due to lousy presentation.
:(
tad pple,is a total of like 14 marks,
which roughly translates into 7 %,
which pro gets mi like an E.
its not any consolation to me tad like outta the whole class,
only 3 pple got Bs,
the rest got E,O,F.
so like wad pls.
whose expectations am i strivin to reach.
my own?
or God's even.
sighz.
it really sucks.
imma hit the books again pls.
this is highly annoyin.
sighz.:(
i HATE school.
but yet i muz strive to get like a B average wen the A's.
and i cant put off organic chem animore alr.
its time to study it and get myself sum marks outta the STUPID 60 marks the allocated it and i didnt even try doin.:@
why?
cuz i decided to forgo org chem.
how dumb pls.
angst.
sighz.
bloody chem.
stupid physics,
even worse math.
sighz.
so much fer my steepin stone.
how depressin.
sighz.
on another note,
school's got new computers.
yay.
sighz.
i hate my life,
but yet havin to live it to glorify God makes it really hard fer mi to stay angsty at it long.
sighz.
i dun like purpose driven life.
its made mi stop bitchin alot,
made mi a generally batter person,
but still.
sumtimes yo wish you could cut loose,
yell out a stream o vugarities to turn the sky blue,
den feel alot better.
but then its all bout self control.
sighz.
christian life is really alot bout holdin back pls.:(
sighz.
oh wellz.
bye guys.
shall update we i got more time.
shall go recess now.:(