simple ponderins.

durin svc today.

this thought came to me as i was lookin at the bros n sistas in church.
i dun believe imma very holy christian.
nor am i the best example.
so forgif me if i come off soundin really standoffish cuz its really not my intention.
but im juz a curt person wen i haf a point to make so i'll always juz cut to the meat of the issue.

in the bible,
it says tad we have te victory.
thus we neednt worry bout other silly stuff tad is of the world.
at the same time.
we are in the world,
and as human.
we carry characteristics tad are OF the world into the church.

humans are manipulative pple.
i can name you the usual weapons in the arsenal.

guilt trippin.
emo strings pullin.
yada yada.

endless weapons.
ya'll know em.
i know em.
hell.
i tink we've all used em at one point or another to get wad we wan.

but at the same time,
i really believe the church should be a place where the word WORTHY shouldnt exist.
we all know the christian walk is bloody tiring,
strenous at the best of times.
and yet at the same time,
we shouldnt hafta prove ourselves worthy in the church.
the Lord looks at our heart.
not how we have proven ourselves to human standards.

i really honestly cant see the rationale behind why certain things are the way they are in church today.
why the need fer sum seriously ridiculous stuff i see.
the desperate rush of the younger ones who wanna be like the leaders followin the scent of blood.
its become "THE INITIATION RITE"
wen there shouldnt be one.
why should pple hafta adhere to this standard tad are set by HUMANS,
if they feel their heart is right wit God?
why should their desire to want to serve be hindered by humanoid perceptions as to wad the standards are?
i find it highly hypocritical.
you can argue tad they are leaders,
they hafta make sure every aspect is rite.

den again.
i ask you.
who the hell are you to judge.
why get in way of their desire to serve?

i quote this sayin tad i read from a book.

"kill em all and let God sort em out"

why cant tis work.
why should you be judgin this pple.
let em do wad they so desire.
if they are competent in their God given abilities,
dun stop em.
let em serve.
if their hearts are wrong,
they wanna do it cuza the fame,the glory,the whole seh of it,
the Lord will deal wit em.

WHO gave you the right to be the avengin judgementation of God.
i dun have anyone to blame.
to me.
its becomin like a company.
the systematic "organisation heirachy" has be formed.
my fear is tad it'll become sumthin OF the world and not a place where pple can find solace FROM the world.

those of you workin can alr see wad i mean.
the muz meaningless things you hafta do in the name of operational procedure.
things tad are utterly senseless but hafta be done to please sum human higher up in the company.
i really dun wanna see the church be led like a business.

i was chattin wit this guy who came to my bar.
he was a christian.
and the reason why he left was cuz he was so disgusted at the church becomin like a business den remainin the solace from the rest of the world,
the place to recharge n strengthen one's faith.
you wanna know which church is he from?
city harvest.
i sincerely hope we dun go that way.

maybe imma tinkin too much again.
but i really believe that certain signs are comin out alr.
and if my lil thoughts here can help a lil.
i sincerely hope it does.
maybe sum1'll read my blog and pass on wad i say.
i juz pray tinted glasses away,
and all who lead,
all who decides the system,
look at the heart insteada the way the person lives.
we're all in the world n guilty of bein of the world.
dun judge n condemn.
it sucks.

niwaez.
i've got 5 posts tad are saved as drafts.
teehee.
havent had time to go back to me yet.
oh wellz.
really really tired.
shall go nap a while.