i really need a break.

its been a gay week.
things are piling on and honestly i dun have time nor space to breathe.
with last week assignments and presentation, exam this week, a million dollar deal to prepare for, 34 levels of 46 walls per levels of system to draw, + tuition lessons to prepare for my kids.
i need time to do what i want.
and that won't come till i finish up the exam and the tender is submitted.

i cant even rest in peace anymore.
3 nights of nightmares back to back and i get less den 6 hours of sleep a night.
i cant even sleep on bus joourneys cuz i get massive headaches once i start worrying about stuff.
thinkin i should be studying on the bus, or going thru drawings.

mentally you know you need the reprieve.
but you cant spare the time nor mantal capacity nor control to order your body to rest.

i really need a break from it all.



i guess here's where army's good in the sense you never burn out cuz you can claim offs.


but in the civilian world,no such thing exists.


juz 3 more days.
till the paper.
den maybe aft that i can rest.


sigh.

im sorry baby.