sispec warrior marchin in.ONE YEAR OLDER!!!

on monday.
i suffered a major case of monday blues.
lettin go of everythin i've only juz begun to cherish.
the freedom,
my dear,
family,
the time to spent alone.
everythin i knew i was going to hafta surrender once i entered the camp.
imagine my despair wen i realised i was in the craziest company.

basically,
i was pretty much oblivious to wad company was wad.
den i heard tad there were actually the crazy ones.
and the normal n the slack ones.
i dunno wad it is about me,
but i never expected there to haf any diff in the standards in training.
i mean,
aft all,
we're all going to be trained the same way wad.
den aft tad.
i begin to hear things.
at this pint in time,
i didnt even know which company i was yet.
so yup.
wen i finally found out,
i was quite "hmmmmm...okie.."
kinda.
yea.
den i decided to msg alv.
"eh,charlie coy xiong not"
this was his reply.
"gan pua xiong"
imagine my despair.

the torture had juz begun.
n the nightmare was being lived.
rite from the start,
the OC decided to make things clear.
and clear he did make.
simply put,
he had all the other more aware pple start talkin about charlie coy.
the listed out.
"xiong, no nites out, everythin tad other coys do,charlie does double, no canteen breaks...etc"
with each statement said out,
my heart sank even more.
this was beginnin to sound more n more like MOHAWK coy.
which i barely survived.
and the OC juz smiled n said,"WOW!!!!You're ALL CORRECT!!!!let me welcome you to CHARLIE COMPANY"
"TIS IS THE ONLY PLACE YOU'LL BE TRAINED WITHOUT CUTTIN CORNERS."
i nearly puked blood at that point in time.
it was exactly wad i heard the 1st day of mohawk.

n it has lived up to wad it is reputed.
incredible standards of discipline,
drill,
PT.
comparin wit other companies has become a futile effort cuz it juz makes us more depressed.
lets juz say pple have been to canteen,pple have booked out,
we havent.
at all.
we juz have incredibly ghey PT.
we've been pumped fer more den 50-600 times alr.
we do chinups every meal,
any less den 8 and you drop 20 advanced push ups.
which i had to do cuz wen i came here,
i was told my SEVEN CHIN UPS,
ALL DIDNT COUNT EXCEPT FER 2 CUZ THEY WERE NOT "STANDARD"
puke upon puke uopn despair i swear.
:@:@:@:@:@:@:@

den we larnt a new form of torture.
it goes by the name CPT3.
COMBAT PT 3.
which basically,
we did 1 count of 4 fer all the exercises.
only 5 exercises.
:))
sounds really easy dunnit?
well.
if you were in other coys maybe.
basically,
fer almuz EVERY SINGLE COUNT,
be it in a flex or strain position,
we had a minute or more interval.
so its "exercise begin..1................................................................
..................................................
(30 sec passes)............
..................................................
.................................(grunt noises as we fight puttin it down)...
"STOP F@!#IN MOANIN!!!!!"....................
........................
..............................
...........................................................
"SING THE SCHOOL SONG!!!".......
....(SCH SONG BEGINS)........
................................
......(SCH SONG ends)
......"OKAY....TWO!!!!"
......(plat sounds as PT SCHOES hit floor)...
"F!@# you stupid !@$%!#!!!!!LAST POSITION!!!!"
...(everyone grunts to drag shoes up)....
"YOU IDIOTS CANT DO ANY B!@#!@
THING PROPERLY!!!!".....
.......(grunt grunt...)..."TWO!"..........
(3 sec later...).."THREE!!!!!!
GET IT UP YOU B!#@!#@!!!!!!"....

yea.
you get the idea.
pure PAIN.
den the regimental duties came up.
as it was.
morale was so low i really felt like dyin.
den imagine how low my spirits sank wen i hadta do deputy COS duty today.
it was an ALL NEW LOW.
and i tot i had reached the lowest in mohawk.
all the trainees really felt like shat.
everywhere we went,
we see other coys smiling,
enjoyin training.
charlie coy pple marched as if their lives depended on it wit the muz severe funeral like faces cuz of fear of death by sargs via PT.

it sucks honestly.
n plus my birthday was on fri.
so yea.
i was really REALLY depressed.
at this point in time,
i would like to recognise these few pple.
besides my family,
they are the ones who never forget yr aft yr.

steph loi.
whom i've never once remembered her's,but yet has always sent me a msg juz to wish me happy birthday.year aft year..amazing i swear.:))
much love babe.:') *Sniff sniff*

angela toy.
once again,who've i've seldom remembered.but as always,send me a msg to cheer me up.
mucho mucho <3 to you too babe.

rah.
not many words can be said cuz of the way we are now.
but thanks pls.
it meant sumthin to me.

jummieeee choooon.
who i've only celebrated her birthday once i believe.cuz angela organised it.
but she's never forgotten to msg me.not once.:))
<3 <3 to you too mad woman.:))

fysh!!!!!!!!
stupid dude msged me at 4 in the mornin.
the instant i saw the time i knew he was up WOWing.
SO JEALOUS!!!!!!
but he's never forgot too.
:))
love n respect pls bro.
:))

to the new ones.
qi,angel,and all else.
:))
mucho love to you all too pls.

you hafve no idea how much of a motivator it was to actually see those smges n know tad pple out there in the civilian world remember you.
i went into sispec a teenager,
imma gonna be graduatin outta there an adult.

sighz.
im lookin forward to trainin,
yet dreadin the aches n low morale tad'll come hand in hand with it.
i guess its all part n parcel of bein the elite.
sighz.
wad more else can be said.
lub to all you pple who remembered.:))
lub to those tad didnt.
im still acceptin belated pressies n wishes.:))
heh.
nite alls.